Fire&Ash
Experienced
- Apr 15, 2020
- 210
I got a job two months ago. It is a job that training is difficult and takes longer than 3-4 months to be proficient in. I was lucky to get this job instead of a low cashier job during the pandemic, especially without a degree and only a high school diploma. But I struggle daily to get out of bed to motivate myself to go and I hate it because I don't think I'll get a decent job like this again. $16 and hour job. 10-12 hour shifts. I'm angry at myself that I already want to quit because I already beat myself up daily and I do it more at work telling myself I want to kms. I hate it. I already feel like I don't have a future because I'm pretty sure I have many learning disabilities especially these days where the job market is sooo conpetitive I don't think I can ever be independent...I'm so angry and miserable at my own behavior.