lovedread

lovedread

hell is other people
Jan 2, 2020
213
Yeah, prolly. Feels almost like destiny
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,938
I wish to of course as only non-existence is desirable to me, all I wish for is to be permanently unconscious for all eternity. I don't see any benefit to being burdened with human existence for decades on end with the ability to suffer and feel the most extreme agony just to be tormented by old age and die anyway, to exist will always be beyond dreadful, it really is just pointless suffering.

I wish it's straightforward for one to die on their own terms with no risks involved, I really wish there's the option of a guaranteed, peaceful suicide pill or instant poison but of course if it's up to me I never would have chosen to exist at all, I wish I stayed eternally unaware of the abomination that is existence.
 
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neverLoved

neverLoved

Member
May 4, 2024
42
No, for now I don't see it happening. I personally don't think I have experienced life enough to make that decision rationally. Although it is constantly on my mind, and I'll be receiving my SN Monday.

Unless something happens which hits me off and it ends up being an impulsive action.
 
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AmericanMary

AmericanMary

Mage
Apr 30, 2024
599
Yea šŸ˜‡
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,450
No one can really answer this either way until they carry out the act.

However, once some is depressed, their life time likelihood for suicide is higher than someone who was never depressed. Even if recovered we can fall back into depression in the future again.

In all likelihood I would say for me the answer is probably yes. However it varies day to day. Sometimes hour by hour.
 
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FakeSmileGuy

FakeSmileGuy

hate myself lol
Apr 16, 2024
41
Yes, probably around August. This summer will be my last.
 
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ChildOfLove

ChildOfLove

When your sky dims, I will be there. Waiting.
May 9, 2024
10
Most definitely. I have everything planned out and cannot afford to fail again. I will probably hang myself in a week or so from now on. I haven't set an actual date yet, but due to time-sensitive matters I must do it in May anyway. My very first and only friend is planning on ctb soon as well. Too much shit going on and I can't take it.
 
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ham and potatoes

ham and potatoes

Just some hillbilly
Mar 27, 2024
414
Unsure.
If i can get my anxiety and depression back under control to the point i can enjoy life again, then no.
If i cant, then its allot more likely.

Ideally, id like to get back mentally to the place i was a couple years ago and live happily, like before my meds quit working
But its comforting knowing ive got an exit strategy in case i cant
 
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petal76

Member
May 7, 2024
8
I'm ready to go , I don't have any loved ones left to worry about and I want to leave in a painless way
 
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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
341
Eventually, yeah. Hopefully a little over a year from now.
 
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wasteodwords

Member
May 9, 2024
8
Absolutely. If I can just stop being a little bitch I'd have done it by now. If I could afford a gun it'd be a lot easier.
 
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jacobryan

Member
Mar 11, 2024
99
I recently failed an attempt. It has me re-evaluating everything. I know one day, I will. I don't have a date, or even a timeline of when though. I do know that if I start losing my mental capacities or I become physically disabled I will definitely ctb on my own terms (as long as I'm physically able to do so).
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,749
Yes I will kill myself

Haven't yet cause risky diy suicide methods could leave me alive but with brain damage
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,279
Eventually when I get energy to
 
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Ashā€™Girl

Ashā€™Girl

Girl, Interrupted
Apr 29, 2022
386
I don't remember anymore a time in my life where I wasn't convinced my eventual exit would be self inflicted. It's always been more a matter of "when" than "if".

But the older I get the more I wonder if I ever will successfully ctb. Though I don't take care of my health at all anymore so probably would die earlier than estimated life expectancy. Then again, I've found the universe to likes to laugh at me so I could still be live and kicking in another forty bloody years. (Please no).
 
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untothedepths

untothedepths

ego death, then death
Mar 20, 2023
592
Survival instinct and shitty, painful methods are keeping me. But, I keep going through more stressful bullshit each and everyday and I'm being pushed more and more. The self harm is on a pretty consistent pattern and I'm becoming unafraid to strike myself.
 
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final_countdown12

Student
May 7, 2024
190
Yes, We are ready! Just a couple of weeks more and then Bye Bye

20240509 193719
 
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BlackEyedDog

BlackEyedDog

Mage
May 6, 2024
548
I came to sasu to research method. I think EB with nitrogen.
 
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turbomightbegone

turbomightbegone

šŸŽ£
Nov 13, 2023
183
im not too sure, I back out too much. but I feel like it'd happen this year if nothing changes.
 
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The Crybaby

The Crybaby

Thanks a lot, Aspergerā€™s syndrome
May 9, 2024
16
As soon as I can
 
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fleetingnight

fleetingnight

incapable of shutting up
May 2, 2024
648
Not soon, but yes. Sometime this year, I'm going to decide on a date.
 
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Decided98

Decided98

ā€œAll life is a near death experience.ā€
Dec 27, 2022
211
Yes November
 
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goodoldnoname923

goodoldnoname923

Wanting to find peace
Mar 28, 2024
834
Definitely I'm desperate,just finding a way isn't easy
 
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justcallmeJ

justcallmeJ

<3
Nov 9, 2023
408
I dont know anymore, i want to but i know i cant
 
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RadiantNumber

RadiantNumber

Member
Mar 2, 2024
84
I don't know, from one side I see this as only option and from other I am afraid of it
 
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