At least I see absolutely no reason to continue existing, the only reason as to why I'm actually still here is because going through with suicide involves risks and is a difficult thing to do. If suicide is more straightforward I would be long gone from this world, free from the burden that is existence.
But yes, continuing to exist only ever does cause us to suffer more, with the potential being there for existing to get so much worse at any moment. The existence of life really is the most tragic thing, it's horrific how life evolved to this point in which we have awareness of this world. I will never not despise life, existing holds no value and has no purpose, life is such an useless concept and the only thing that brings me any form of relief is the thought of being permanently free from this world. To die solves everything as it removes the cause of all problems in the first place and the thing that I have a problem with is life itself. But yes, there is no beauty in being here. It would be seriously disturbing to suggest life as being a beautiful thing. Such a view is so invalidating as so much endless torture continues to exist.