I wanna die but im scared to kill myself

[shaggydootv]

Its just when life can make u desperate hopeless tired and wanting to die but u dont have the courage to do it its a tough spot to be on and i hate it i hate the fact that im 27 years old i hate the fact that i dont have a job i hate the fact that im alive i hate the fact that i lived 27 years only to suffer i hate that my life was pointless and purposeless if thats a word i hate myself and i never had self esteem i wish i left younger i didnt have to live this long just to fucking suffer i love being alone so nobody can judge me i love it so nobody can think shit about me like im a bun or a loser i hate being here for what? To get up and live the same mediocre days?? Im such a pussy to kill myself and ive always been i think thats why im still here i tried to kill myself like 2 years ago i felt so sick for months i know how fucking rough this life is and i know nobody is my friend.

 

[Off_Switch]

We're all going to have to face this fear one way or another. Whether we like it or not. I'm not going to suffer waiting.