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Rimiku

Rimiku

iron 1
Aug 24, 2023
13
i do not want to be alive living is a general pain for me i dont find any meaning in it besides what i pretend to give it just to drag myself through the days, everyone i loved is already gone and the rest of my family are so distant and far gone that i dont see any reason to keep up ties, i genuinely hate myself and my life i have zero ambition and yet every time i get to the point of actually committing to ctb i back out and get scared my brains tricks me into believing that somehow the afterlife will be worse that whatever pain im in now will be even worse if i just give up now, or find some silly excuse about how maybe one or two people will miss me but those same people, are part of the reason i hate being alive, i cant keep going like this it has to end please just make it end
 
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SummerTrip

SummerTrip

aiygiwgwyaiydiwdwy
Feb 23, 2026
70
I'm certain If the afterlife exists it wouldn't be as shitty as this existence. At the very least you'd be able to commune with loved ones you lost which for me, personally, is enough. Just to talk to them is enough for me. No matter the cost.
If it doesn't exist, well, I wouldn't be there to experience it as eternal oblivion suggests.

I believe for some of us it's just a gamble. If you aren't capable of living when your loved one(s) died then you just either follow the game rules, continue your existence and whatnot, or off yourself, hoping for the future you are dreamed off. Maybe It'll be your reality, maybe it won't. Doesn't matter really when the opposite is oblivion in which you wouldn't be.
 
endlesschatter

endlesschatter

CTB asap
Aug 30, 2026
151
I know the loneliness strikes really hard. I know this young girl, she was 22 yrs old when she met me. She had a big mansion created by her ancestors. Due to COVID and old age, all of the people died. She is left by her father and mother only. She takes care of cats. She found her purpose in taking care of her cats and her old parents. Her old parents aren't simple either. They keep quarelling amongst themselves. That keeps the atmosphere of the house very heavy. Not a very healthy environment to prosper. To distract herself, she has started a business of her own. She sells Pakistani dresses to Indian market at a great price, all this while she was doing her graduation studies.

Why I had to share this story is that worldover a lot of people are facing this problem, but how they deal with it makes the magic work. You can be alone but you can build an ecosystem of your own from scratch, an ecosystem of like minded people with whom you can enjoy life.

I've been very popular in online space but I cut off from them and I'm now only connected to the friends that matter.

You don't have to ctb to get rid of this loneliness my dear friend.

However this is not a proLifer post. It was just an example of how someone else in another part of the world is handling a similar situation, so you can too, if you wish to🫂❤️

I leave the choice to you❤️ choose what's the best for you in the long run
Talking about after life, no one has seen afterlife and people just tell based on what they have heard or what they have read or what they have been told.
May be after we die. *Poof* gone forever.
This soul is destroyed and a new soul takes birth and takes birth in the form of May be butterfly, lion, horse, bee, etc who knows
 

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