Venting im so in hate with myself wtf

[catbunny]

At this point i dont even know what to do instead of laughing at my own self like i wish i could duplicates of myself and bully it with the most hateful words that ever existed and watch it kill itself in pain cause wtf did i have done with everything in my life. i know that im the one to blame so gosh im so fustrated like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA im so in hate with myself and everything right now. i wish its the end of the world cause wtf is this life. this is pathetic to the point i wish i have never been born. i even wish now that my reason to live die so i can die without any regret. why am i even surprised that my life could never get better lol i thought it can so many times and now i know it can not it actually feel WOW how could it be like this. i wish can just jump off the bridge tomorrow cause GOSH I AM SO TIRED why cant i kill myself im so in hate that i wish can stab it mutiple times until what is left is just a bunch of mushy meat.