why do you want to die?

[lolmusicgirl2008]

I have no one to live for.

 

[SectOfValtiel]

because every second im still alive feels like agony

im all alone whether i want to be or not, people dont even notice when im not around anymore
and they dont remember me when im gone
im incapable of making an impact anywhere i go- and the rare occasions when i do, its not a positive one
everyone i love leaves no matter how hard i fight to change so they wont
i make the same mistakes every chance i get despite trying so hard not to
im not a good person, im not attractive, im not funny, im not intelligent, im not memorable
im barely even here as is, a husk of a human being
a silhouette where a person should be
and that comes with so much unbearable loneliness that i cannot stand any longer

the only reason i havent *tried* yet is because im too much of a coward, and im scared of the fact that i might always be

 

[Wannagonow]

Uncontrolled, unmanaged and unpleasant bipolar and major depression for decades. Resistant to medication, lonely, 1 friend, and in total debt with bills now going unpaid. I've daydreamed and thought about ctb for so long it really is what I consider my norm.

 

[aforestfire]

trauma and loneliness are the main reasons. i can't live for myself, and i have no one in my life (that is worth living for). my existence couldn't be more empty and pointless, it wouldn't make a matter if i disappeared now.
and also because i'm a horrible human being.

 

[LilaMond]

even the most basic things in life, which everybody else seems to just manage, I can not. Any relationship with humans is painful for me, as I feel they will eventually leave me and the thought of being physically or emotionally alone, is unbearable. I can not endure being by myself, hearing nothing but my own stupid thoughts. I feel so captured. Thats why I just want to end everything.

 

[StrangePossum]

I am not cut out to live in the world as it is. I'm not a good person and I'm too messed up to function anymore, much less contribute anything good to society. I'm tired of feeling like a failure and a waste of resources.

 

[donealready]

There is no hope.
I've exhausted all my options. I've tried to do the recovery thing, repeatedly, i really have. This is my only option left.

 

[Phlixter]

I've done most of the things I wanted to do with my life. I went to all the concerts I've wanted to go to, I travelled the world, I graduated, I've gone skydiving, Bungy jumping, got some tattoos. Now there's nothing really left for me apart from working my way up. I just wanna make the best decisions for a fulfilling successful future. I wanna reach my full potential. I wanna be independent. But I'm so alone on this world. And I own it. I enjoy my own company. But man it sucks sometimes. I've never been in a serious relationship and it will take time but I have a long way to go. I'm 30 years old living at my parents house. I quit drinking 4 years ago and I am happy about that. But it's a hard. I'm so boring now. I have so much potential. And I had big dreams as a kid. And I'm miserable because I didn't achieve my expectations of success that I wanted. I'm work 2 jobs and I gym everyday. Things are slowly getting better. But man I am sad. I'm insecure about my low level of intelligence and frustrations with my life. I'm so miserable I could park my car in front of the ocean and do nothing for hours. I'm so bored and lonely. I'm literally just existing. And I can't bear to see myself trapped in this place growing old and burnt out. I'll keep telling myself it'll get better x :)

 

[Himalayan]

For attention.

 

[WhenTheyCry]

Schizophrenia, Autism, Bipolar, PTSD. I'm constantly having flashbacks to when I got abused as a child and bullied in school. It makes me permanently angry, sad, suicidal, I'm sick of it, I can't feel happiness and I want to end the pain.
I'm neck deep in medical debt ($30,000+) from America's broken healthcare system.