Discussion Where are you on the Emmengard Suicide Scale today?

[f1lth]

8, slowly but surely becoming a 9

 

[LunaRose]

9 ever since my friend committed.

 

[carac]

3 or 4 right now, this time last year I was safely a 9 and went to a 10 for a few days

 

[former forum user J]

4 or 5

 

[Forever Sleep]

6-9 I relate to the most but all of them assume we deep down think that suicide is a bad idea. That these thoughts are 'intrusive' or 'troubling' to us. My ideation is a part of my everyday thinking. Has been for decades. It also (to me) alludes to the sense that we feel out of control, frantic. That, without 'intervention', we'll suddenly snap. It's not to say I don't experience desperate moments but I don't want my suicide to be like that.

I'm stage 9 in terms of practicalities- will is made, method is purchased, notes are drafted= actively suicial. But I vary between a 6-9 in terms of my everyday living. There are specific reasons I'm stuck here and while I am- I need to earn a living. Maybe I'm 'lucky' that I can distract myself enough with work and other stuff but the ideation is always running in the background.

Maybe it's just my own experience but I feel like this scale is only how some people experience suicidal thoughts. It's ironically anti-suicidal thoughts when I think a lot of people embrace them. Even see suicide as a release- not something they fear they might do one day. I'd say more of us here are frightened of the consequences of not doing it!

 

[deadtrace]

Between 6 and 7. Been higher up recently so I'll take it for now.

 

[orangepulp]

7

 

[Kundalini Guy]

4

 

[psp3000]

I find this scale to be really helpful

mostly 5 to 7 and as of this month but sometimes 8

 

[Henryk]

between 9 and 10 since at least once a day I try to use some technique to kill myself

 

[LonelyStarrySky]

Somewhere between 8-9 for the last month.

 

[Humble]

I'm at a solid 4 right now

 

[Sylveon]

...7.5?

 

[SparkleWater]

probably like a 6 or a 7 atm

 

[Old Friend]

8 at the moment. 9 sometimes.

 

[sparkdarkmark]

10. Currently trying to figure out how to tie the rope and hang myself but I'm so damn stupid I can't figure out it.

 

[Lupgevif]

9.

 

[soon2beselkie]

probably 5-6

 

[mrelief82]

9 all the time, can't do anything else than to think about it

 

[never mind me]

This scale is fucking weird. It suggests suicide is a bad idea and that people always move from taking risks or mere suicidal ideation to concrete steps towards suicide. Personally I rarely , if ever engaged it risky behavious when feeling suicidal despite sometimes having very concrete plans for suicide. So I guess for me this scale just doesn't make sense

 

[leloyon]

I'm about a 9 right now.

 

[ForeverBroken]

Never heard of this scale.
At a 6-7 for the most part.

 

[thinvy]

basically a way calmer but constant 9. I'm always thinking about when I'll catch the bus out lol.

I'd say 7 but I think my lack of impulsivity and the specificity of the actively planning part of 9 kinda sways me that way

 

[zeldalover]

Between 8 and 9 right now

 

[tarococo]

I'm constantly stuck between 7-9, I'm getting so tired of this. I'm back at 8 now after peaking yesterday and cutting contact with my best friend

 

[meandering-river]

8-9. But I have a plan. I have all that I need. Just waiting for the opportunity.

 

[Wistful]

A 10

 

[Gonnerr]

5 or 6

 

[deathviahanging]

a 5 or 6 usually a 7 tho

 

[Heading to Darkness]

I have never seen this before it's really interesting.
I have hit 10 3 times right now daily i bounce from 7 to 9 i havent made that final attempt. I am under a 'crisis team we shall see. The boxes are close and even crossover the higher you go except for 10 which clearly means you are about to jump/ shoot yourself/ fatally overdose etc.
Thanks for sharing this