Discussion Where are you on the Emmengard Suicide Scale today?

[thefinalcut]

8-9, trending closer to 9 as the days pass. 8 is not necessarily accurate, though. This isn't emotional. I don't need to call anyone. This isn't depression or sadness for me. This is having no choice... or picking the path that leads to the least bullshit and suffering. I have been forming a rough plan the past month, but the past few days have picked up and am really starting to get into details.

 

[LeWantsToDie]

I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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8-9

 

[Kit1]

8

 

[illvoid]

About 6

 

[Bardia]

Right now, I'm at 8 on the scale. That's typically about when I return to this forum.

ETA: until recently, I managed to be no worse than 5-6 for about a year.

 

[hopelessoceanic25]

I'm consistently hovering in the 6-8 range. But when some shit hits the fan, which is often, it jumps to 9-10 really easily.

 

[junko]

I'm at a 9 today. Maybe 10 will come soon

 

[Ai-chan]

Rn probably 8, or maybe 9. 8.5?

In general, typically hovering between 6-8 lol

 

[HiddenHead]

Probably 5 at the moment. But honestly I'm so inconsistent I usually cycle through many of these levels in a matter of days.

 

[RichardFirst]

Somewhere between 6 and 7.

 

[L I F E T O L O S E]

i'm still 10

 

[life !s boring]

Hmm a sturdy 7 but I rather ctb and have no one know I dipped out

 

[ziana]

9

 

[Zyntkalla]

I am between a 4,5,8. I'm only in an 8 when my main trigger is triggered, and it's at it's worst time. I am mainly a 5 on my better days, but very rarely a four.

 

[Redacted24]

I'll go with minimum 6 and a half generally... with days ranging to 9

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I'm basically always at an 8.5

 

[SecretDissociation]

7 8ish today

 

[Apathy79]

Most of my life is 2-4. Today a 3. When the nerve pain really flares up, especially when I can't sleep for many days straight due to it and can't do anything but endure it, I've hit 9 before. It's the not knowing when or if it will stop. If that ever lasts a week or more, I'll almost certainly hit 10. Unfortunately it feels progressive. On the plus side 5-8 aren't part of my world.

 

[gothbird]

9.

 

[Mooncry]

I fluctuate constantly between 6 and 8, throw a little bit of 9 on there for seasoning. It sucks.

 

[Jade10666]

8 - on the path to 10

 

[wantingdignity]

I was a 9-10, but am currently 6-7. Just waiting to see how things go.

 

[Linda]

The scale doesn't seem to fit my situation at all. I will ctb if my husband dies before me. I won't ctb otherwise. At present, I'm OK and have no major problems. I don't think about catching the bus any more than is necessary to plan for it should I ever need to do it.

 

[Thekla]

Solid 4 actually, which is a pretty good day for me. I'm excited to meet with my Church tomorrow.

 

[bankai]

80kg and pissed off. hopefully I can lose 10kg soon.

 

[LigottiIsRight]

In 9 for maybe a year or more But I don't "need" to tell someone, that part is obviously the preventionist pro-life bullshit.

 

[relapse]

8

 

[JesiBel]

Currently, between 7 and 8..

 

[moonflow3r]

8-9

 

[Blue Dream]

6 to 9.
Currently on 8