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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

cease to exist 不复存在
Mar 28, 2025
698
I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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8-9 daily.
 
getoutgirl

getoutgirl

got out the site <3
Mar 17, 2025
558
I think I read once this scale was pretty inaccurate, like someone just thought of it and drew it, but has no medical basis at all. I think it still pretty relatable
I circle between 2, 5, 8 and 9 on a daily basis. Which I'm sure means nothing and I should not be diagnosed with anythnig, just silly like that
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,661
Weirdly ending the day at a low 6. Usual between 7-9.
 
SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Elementalist
May 28, 2024
830
2 right now. Purely because it's sunny out and I'm not having any symptoms. I'll take it.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,458
Today I am 7. I have unsuccessfully hailed a bus before, but kinda stuck at 7. Sometimes 8, but with planning.
 
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anopenwound

anopenwound

I̸'̷m̵ ̸g̶o̷i̶n̵g̷ ̶h̵o̶m̶e̶.̵
Jul 27, 2024
133
Always between 6 and 8.
 
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22yearsbroken

22yearsbroken

Lost in the dark... with no sign of light
Feb 15, 2025
419
Id say a solid 7.9...
 
rabidbunny

rabidbunny

ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʕ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•ʔ•̫͡•
Apr 16, 2025
34
7-9 but its calmer like "it's just what needs to be done" typa vibe
 
P

PeacefulPerson

Member
Apr 12, 2025
8
9 i guess since i am planning in getting my affairs in order but not really an immediate danger to myself. 6 would be more accurate though since i am passively suicidal. Planning on getting my advanced directive notarized this week.
 
a.hamza.13

a.hamza.13

Member
Apr 15, 2024
74
I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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I'm currently at 9 and this is almost all the time.
 
Random Username

Random Username

Gear Head
Sep 10, 2023
75
Currently at 6 though I'm not too optimistic about the future.
 
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GlassMoon

GlassMoon

⣶⣶⣶⣶⣶
Nov 18, 2024
374
4-5, depending on triggers, maybe 1 hour long today. Lowkey 6 sometimes.
 
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CanIStopTryingNow

CanIStopTryingNow

Member
Oct 15, 2023
57
4-5. Mostly okay, but sometimes things trigger it.
 
catfriend

catfriend

meow!
Apr 3, 2025
204
9! actively planning, minus the good-byes. still a ways off from my ctb date. :)
 
TearStainedSunsets

TearStainedSunsets

The sickness that will never be cured...spreads
Oct 27, 2024
76
I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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I am at and 8 today. I would say more of an 8.5 since I have thought about a plan before and have picked a preferred method but I just havent worked out any details or anything so...8 or 8.5 if thats allowed.
 
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NeedAnEscape

NeedAnEscape

awaiting the end
Oct 16, 2023
269
I'm about a 5-6 for now. Looking at this scale, I really was struggling last year. It didn't feel as bad compared to what other people experience, but I used to be ranging from 7-9. I was taking risks with my life, and I didn't care about what happened to me. I really don't know why I didn't reach a 10 last summer.
 
SNastablesalt

SNastablesalt

she longs for freedom
Oct 6, 2023
178
I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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9, espcially since i have sn on its way lol.
 
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Thomas Rekowicz

Thomas Rekowicz

Member
Mar 10, 2025
67
Jumping between 6 and 9 i want live and i want to be gone at the same time IT is fucked up i just want to hug someone and cry and do not pretend anymore.
 
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GoneFromRevolution

I exist... for now.
Nov 6, 2022
36
Same as I've been for the past few months... 5. The thought of getting a job and dealing with people on that basis terrifies me though.
 
Z

Zaphkiel

IDK
May 13, 2023
301
Between 5 and 7 at time. Average.... 5.5 I guess ? Doing kinda better.
 
Promised Heaven

Promised Heaven

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
739
In between a 6 and 7. I obtained an opioid like stimulant earlier today to abuse, I don't see a good future for me, but if I try my absolute best and mentally exhaust myself I could be happy for the day, but it'll be worse tomorrow. I was at an 8 earlier this week, but I'm sure if I'll return back there sooner or later.
 
ringo99

ringo99

Mage
Apr 18, 2023
536
8-9. I don't feel the need to tell anyone though. Never making that mistake again.
 

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