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milkteacrown

milkteacrown

suicidal angel
Feb 16, 2025
128
I'm usually at a 9, but lately I've been at a 6. My ennui has been marginally better these days.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,458
Ill say Im a 7, but as always proper planning prevents poor possible performance. The 6 P's.
 
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Rynalia

Rynalia

くたばりぞこない
Apr 22, 2025
305
Baseline is a 9, often find myself rapidly in and out of 1[0].

Why '1[0]' and not '10'? It's because I get slasher smile happy that I'm going to attempt to CTB. Extremely inappropriate happiness.
 
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polarcrow_

polarcrow_

Member
Mar 11, 2025
22
9 or 10. I say 10 as I'm in the 'act' of preparing myself for SN (taking the meds etc.) but obviously I may decide in 30 minutes that today isn't the day so a 9 is possible too.
 
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carlbot

🐢
Mar 18, 2025
26
Constant 9, heading towards a 10. 6 if I'm distracted with something like gaming, though that doesn't last for long..
 
StupidCat

StupidCat

retard
Apr 24, 2025
310
8 to 9 nine in a consistent basis. I keep making plans up and then scraping them. I keep telling close people to be fine without me, but them worrying it pains me even more I rather not tell.
 
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SovietSuicide

SovietSuicide

Student
Jan 8, 2022
141
9.8

I'm lying in bed with SN next to me, debating whether to say goodbye to people.
 
no-hope-no-future

no-hope-no-future

Member
Apr 21, 2025
58
6 at the moment but have been higher up in the past. I was at a know junction in my car where people have been known to die in the past. I could see a HGV was driving along and I thought I can take my seat belt off and pull out in front of the HGV and just get t boned into death. Unfortunately it started slowing down at the last minute so ended up abandoning the idea. I'm currently looking at beachy head.

This scale Iis a good idea and will be using this for my self. Hope that's OK.
 
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Defenestrator

Defenestrator

Specialist
Jan 17, 2020
303
6 at the moment, it spikes up at times though.
 
SleepyTransit

SleepyTransit

My death is my dream.
Apr 27, 2025
53
9 cause I am making a plan, but I'm usually a 6.
 
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Jade10666

Jade10666

Exploring the end - Canadian
Apr 8, 2025
135
9 moving toward 10 soon
 
F

Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,512
Currently 9 although I am in the mood to make an attempt today. We will see what happens.
 
INYGTRMTFMO

INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
187
Right this second a 5, though my baseline here recently seems to be around 6-7.
 
angelinx

angelinx

too sensitive for this world
Apr 30, 2025
11
I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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during the day like a 6, however at night its like a solid 8 or 9. everything just intensifies for me at night. 😭
 
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kvorumese

"Wiped Out!"
Oct 21, 2024
153
I would be at an 8-9, but I am not telling anybody about it, so I'm not sure if I do fall there
 
cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
971
Almost always 7. In the past 48 hours I suddenly zipped up to a 1 and it's wild, my head is exploding, I don't know why this happens sometimes, but no doubt I'll be around 8 pretty soon. It's thrilling, I love coming down so hard, BAM. No drugs, no reason, just my brain or something.
 
jr331199

jr331199

Member
Apr 27, 2025
17
I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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8 :( I do have my set up ready, I just feel stopped
 
Jade10666

Jade10666

Exploring the end - Canadian
Apr 8, 2025
135
10. Actively planning with a date to carry it out. Soon
 
matchalavendercake

matchalavendercake

truly at my limit (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.゚
Feb 23, 2025
39
9 and will get to 10 when i finally obtain what i need to ctb
 
25jiyuki

25jiyuki

Unrestrained
Feb 25, 2025
50
I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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9 except I'm not telling anyone. Everyone thinks I'm still working hard to recover.
 
EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

:3
Apr 10, 2025
1,970
I'm at a 2, have gone to 4 not too long ago, a few years ago I may have briefly been at 1.... and 10 (tho survived due to luck)
 
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veinofether

veinofether

birth is a curse and existence is a prison
Mar 31, 2024
30
8 for a good few weeks now. I want it to end so badly but I'm too much of a coward
 

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