Discussion Where are you on the Emmengard Suicide Scale today?

[Preh1storic_Rib]

6, but I am also finalizing my plan and writing notes slowly. kinda oscillating between it and 9.

 

[wantingdignity]

4-5 today.

 

[Unhumanly.]

5, although, thinking of suicide as an escape is not like a joke to me but a genuine desire to escape my frustrations and the weight of being relied to (that would make me selfish),

 

[angelalexandra]

probably around an 8 and a half today, ive got a lot of things set up and ready to go but ive sort of put finding a viable method on hold for a while now just to see how my new living situation plays out (or at the very least, im just morbidly curious to see how its going to fall apart)

 

[notreallybored]

ב''ה, those days where there's nothing to feel good about and yet G-d is somehow saving the actual depression for if things get even worse.. meh.

 

[bgd2022]

6 to 9 depending on the last time I stubbed my toe. Seriously though baseline 6 and depending on how inconvenient or emotional the last thing to happen was will push it up to 7 to 9. On average I'd say 8. Only been a 10 a handful of times the attempts just didn't pan out.

 

[RoseGirl]

Over the course of a week I'll typically vary from 2-8. Rn I'm abt a 3

 

[Archness]

Today was pretty decent, I guess I'd consider it a 4-5. I'm just really good at dissociating and becoming numb to those kinds of thoughts. Often I wish I could just drop dead on-the-spot sometimes, & feeling that I might as well ctb /w how much I'm just fucking doomed and useless is inescapable. Sometimes it's higher, but usually it's 4-5 because it's an objectively "good" NEET life I have where nothing happens and I do nothing about it until it falls apart.

Even then, the baseline is rising, slowly, steadily, imperceptibly slow even. But it only needs a trigger, first fast, then all at once.