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The Unanswered Q

The Unanswered Q

Student
Jan 1, 2025
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8 right now, usually 5/6 though. Today's been awful and honestly don't know why.
 
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catfriend

catfriend

meow!
Apr 3, 2025
204
9! actively planning, minus the good-byes. still a ways off from my ctb date. :)

... still a 9, but anticipating it'll be a 10, come late friday evening. :)
 
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VoidButterfly

VoidButterfly

Flitterby
May 17, 2025
146
9, already have the method and have been working on goodbyes. Just waiting for the date now as I have something I need to do first.
 
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polm

If I was your pet you’d take me to the vet
May 3, 2025
129
9 for the last 18 months.
 
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

Specialist
Mar 12, 2025
334
Ehh, fck Idk... Prob somewhere around a 8. I've got my 12ga at the ready; cocked, locked and ready to rock.. Fml.
 
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Mooncry

Mooncry

✦ 𝓕𝓮𝓵𝓮𝓼 𝓒𝓮𝓵𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓼 ✦
Sep 11, 2024
348
9
 
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NumbLittleBug

NumbLittleBug

New Member
Dec 23, 2024
3
I'm almost always at at least a 5. My line of work forces me to face and think about death all the time. It seems almost natural to me that I would think about death as a concept and as it relates to me on the regular, even if I'm in an "ok" place. I like the phrase "low key death affinity" a lot actually. Highest I've ever been is at an 8. During those times, indulging in my thoughts and fantasies was almost addictive. Make no mistake though, even though I'm not at an 8 anymore, I still think about it all the time.
 
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Mooncry

Mooncry

✦ 𝓕𝓮𝓵𝓮𝓼 𝓒𝓮𝓵𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓼 ✦
Sep 11, 2024
348
I'm almost always at at least a 5. My line of work forces me to face and think about death all the time. It seems almost natural to me that I would think about death as a concept and as it relates to me on the regular, even if I'm in an "ok" place. I like the phrase "low key death affinity" a lot actually. Highest I've ever been is at an 8. During those times, indulging in my thoughts and fantasies was almost addictive. Make no mistake though, even though I'm not at an 8 anymore, I still think about it all the time.
Fellow Em Beihold listener?? 👀
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
Always a 9 even in my sleep, which is a million times worse than 10.
 
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NumbLittleBug

NumbLittleBug

New Member
Dec 23, 2024
3
Ahhhh hello my fellow "broken and broke!"
 
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derekWest

Experienced
Feb 1, 2025
268
5 by now
I like the phrase "low key death affinity" a lot actually.
I have some difficulties to understand this sentence. Why "low key" ? "Death affinity" is understand as a hobby ?

Sorry, I'm French....
 
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