When you're not anxious, what do you feel because I don't feel anything?

[Ambivalent1]

In the rare times I'm not anxious, I want nothing and enjoy very little. I wonder why I only feel anxiety.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

im the same. im either hyper aware and terrified of everything or im numb and nothing matters. i dont know for sure but i have a feeling its to do with ptsd/trauma. like we're naturally in a state of anxiety and caution bc we're scared of something traumatic happening, but when we're not anxious maybe its bc we logically know we're safe in the moment so our anxiety goes down but since we dont know anything other than anxiety we just feel numb, or maybe its bc we're so exhausted from being anxious that we just cant feel anything anymore until we get energy back again. idk tho, just a thought. its tiring existing in two extremes.

 

[vitbar]

During the bad times I'll alternate between anxiety and depression. Sometimes both at once. When depressed I'm restless but nothing appeals.

 

[Awake47]

Sometimes I feel too much emotion, other times I feel no emotion, or there's times where I am in the middle of an anxiety attack but too exhausted to move.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just feel tired of everything, I'm always wishing for eternal sleep.

 

[jazzcat]

when I'm not anxious or performing being ok for other people I'm just very sad and tired

 

[SolomonKado]

i hate when my medications is somewhat working. It feels like there is no pain, but I already know that when the medication slips up I feel it all. Late at night I am scared of not existing and do want to move forward with CTB, but all day long I want to end it. This problems in my life don't just magically go away. It's confusing and frustrating. So day time end it and night time no pain. I hate this.

 

[leloyon]

Nowadays I always alternate between feeling jittery, restless, irritated and uneasy or being incredibly tired and filled with despair. And if that isn't appealing enough, then how about feeling both simultaneously?
I love it when it feels like I'm about to collapse but as soon as I lay down I feel like I need to get up again instantly.

 

[enough of this]

Nowadays I always alternate between feeling jittery, restless, irritated and uneasy or being incredibly tired and filled with despair. And if that isn't appealing enough, then how about feeling both simultaneously?
I love it when it feels like I'm about to collapse but as soon as I lay down I feel like I need to get up again instantly.

I'm very familiar with that combination of feelings. Sorry you have those, as well. We both know the remedy.