When should you have ctb?

[mieczyslavcekin]

23/24 after I lost my love. I'd rather not have healed from that and gone while still within that love. Now I'm " healed " /"over it" but my heart is dead.

Feel ya. The love of my life did it a year ago. I sat on SN for a while, but decided to throw it away after I started seeing someone. Ended quickly, but I had thought it u fair to sit on SN and starting dating.
Now I take care of our cats and it seem sufficient.

 

[butimbleeding]

Around 2018. The opportunity was there right in front of me. But I backed out and started bawling my eyes out as survival instinct kicked in.
Things have got so much worse since then. God damn SI kept me in this dreadful world.

 

[Felodese]

At my first (aborted) attempt. Must have been 14 at the time.
Sure, slitting my wrists was not a great choice of method, but I wish I'd gone through with it - and succeeded. Things have not gotten better since then...

 

[Gstreater]

Around three years ago now. I feel like the last vestiges of hope for something better or for a future I could be happy about died then. Even now I still feel like that.

 

[foreverlanguish]

Two months ago. If it weren't for me backing out, I'd have probably been gone a while ago.