When should you have ctb?

[divinemistress36]

I feel like I should have ctb 6 years ago but everyones stupid "It gets better" sayings kept me going. When do you feel you should have ctb?

 

[KillingPain267]

When do you feel you should have ctb?

Right after I was born and took the first breath. I should have done research in the womb on how to do partial hanging with my umbilical cord. Cursed is the day I was conceived! Cursed is the day my mother said "I am with child"! The pleasures in life are not worth the pains.

 

[NegevChina]

I feel like I should have ctb 6 years ago but everyones stupid "It gets better" sayings kept me going. When do you feel you should have ctb?

I should have done it 6 months ago when I understood my health problem is here to stay and I'll begin slowly slowly losing every thing I gained in life. I'll have to do it soon but now Ill be considered a loser.

 

[Innereye]

I've been in the sunk cost fallacy for a few years now hahaha. But overall I'm glad I'm still around for now.

 

[excinephile]

Right after I was born and took the first breath. I should have done research in the womb on how to do partial hanging with my umbilical cord. Cursed is the day I was conceived! Cursed is the day my mother said "I am with child"! The pleasures in life are not worth the pains.

I feel that. The agony I'm going through is not worth the few cool things I've experienced.

 

[Hollowman]

When I was twelve.

 

[hangingonbyathread]

Been trying to do so for over 8 years, been "very close" twice (2019 and 2023) and lost count how many times in total I've attempted. The feeling of I should CTB has been lifelong.

 

[divinemistress36]

Right after I was born and took the first breath. I should have done research in the womb on how to do partial hanging with my umbilical cord. Cursed is the day I was conceived! Cursed is the day my mother said "I am with child"! The pleasures in life are not worth the pains.

I feel this I told my mom she should have aborted me

 

[cowboypants]

Ideally when I was 7 yo since it went down hill after that.

 

[anonymous101101]

Before my brother decided to khs.

 

[etherealspring]

years agoooo when i had my first suicidal thought at 11

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I should have CTB'd around December 2022 but I got lazy. I also blame Sonic Frontiers and Pokémon Scarlet/Violet for coming out around that time.

 

[Kta1994]

Last year

 

[excinephile]

I basically died last december. Wish my body would realize that and turn itself off.

 

[iwishiwasneverborn2]

I feel like I should have ctb 6 years ago but everyones stupid "It gets better" sayings kept me going. When do you feel you should have ctb?

When I saw my sister blue body

 

[ijustwishtodie]

As early as possible honestly. An earlier death is always better than a later death. I envy kids who died at a "super young" age

 

[mhm-mel]

If we take it like that, whenever would have been fine because of determinism, but my preferred would have been August 2022. Probably a bit earlier, before it hit the fan, but since then specifically has being around completely felt like nothing but a punishment (for my cowardice, I assume).

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally never should have suffered in this existence at all, I truly was never meant for something as futile and torturous as existence and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with it, I'd always prefer to die but I really wish I could erase my existence, I just want peace from all the cruelty and suffering in this existence I never would have wished for.

 

[F@#$]

Decades ago

 

[Ironborn]

A decade ago when the ideation first started, I've just been self destructing since then.

 

[Z-A]

In my case, after graduating elementary school. Been only pain and stress afterwards.

 

[Ligottian]

Many times in the past. Always found a reason to kick the can down the road.

 

[lnlybnny]

I truly don't know. As much as I wanted ctb in the last ten years, some really wonderful things happened, which reminded me life can be beautiful. I can't imagine not being around to have lived them. I still want to go but that got me confused. SO confused. Now I don't know what to do. But at the same time I know I need to go.

 

[bugs_for_brains]

when I was 11 and first got suicidal if I'd just accepted it then it would've been so much less complicated

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I should have CTB'd around December 2022 but I got lazy. I also blame Sonic Frontiers and Pokémon Scarlet/Violet for coming out around that time.

I swear my post wasn't supposed to be funny but I'm glad some people found amusement from it.

 

[divinemistress36]

Right after I was born and took the first breath. I should have done research in the womb on how to do partial hanging with my umbilical cord. Cursed is the day I was conceived! Cursed is the day my mother said "I am with child"! The pleasures in life are not worth the pains.

I feel this I told my mom she should have aborted me

I swear my post wasn't supposed to be funny but I'm glad some people found amusement from it.

Lol I'm sorry

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Lol I'm sorry

All good, I just found it interesting is all. Sonic Frontiers especially made me question CTB'ing at the time with some of its music and dialogue. It's ridiculous, I know so I can see why people would find it humorous.

 

[Hunter2005]

Right before the pandemic because things are getting worse for me.

 

[lonergirl_26]

11 years ago when I first attempted at the age of 8. It only got worse.

 

[Tig]

9 years ago, when my wife died.
Life is pointless now, just lonliness every minute of the day.