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charcoalcat

Member
Apr 17, 2018
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I should have ctb 6 yrs ago when I created this account. I had second thoughts and believed things would get better. Left the forum for a period. Sadly things didn't get better but worse. Now I finally made peace with death, or the concept of death. I'm ready.
 
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CatLvr

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Aug 1, 2024
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I should have been born still. It was a torture growing up in my family. My parents should not have had me, and they said so to me.
Yep. I was 4 months premature in a time when preemies didn't survive. And yet, here I am, 70 years later. 🙄 My mom got pregnant with me in order to trap my dad into marrying her. Then she had all my brothers and sisters so that he would never be able to leave because he couldn't afford the child support -- Never mind that he was a doctor. And I know all this because I heard her telling the neighbor lady over coffee and cigarettes one summer afternoon when I was 14 years old. She was such a lovely woman, my mother. The world became a better place the second her black heart stopped beating.
 
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MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
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I should have wrapped the umbilical cord around my neck in the womb.
 
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CogitoMori

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Oct 21, 2024
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Before I finally tasted what happiness felt like and had it taken away. It was easier to cope when I'd never known that feeling
 
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