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wreckedforever

wreckedforever

M | Any Prns | waiting for something?
Mar 25, 2026
29
Tried hanging myself from my closet pole.. with a bungee cord. :pfff:

I was a dumbass kid lol
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,455
I guess "most silly" is any attempt that didn't work? Well, here's an excerpt from my 'ctb plan' thread where I describe all my previous attempts.

"Let me tell you about my suicide attempts. It's kind of embrassing to go through an attempt and fail but here I am. My first attempt was via a plastic bag. I didn't do that much research and the idea was mostly from fictional television shows. You know how they always show people passing out in like 5-10 seconds just from putting a bag on their head? Yeah, that's why I choose to do it. I was already suicidal and wanted to escape. So I waited until 2 am when everyone was asleep and attempted. Unfortuantly I didn't seal the bag with an airtight seal. I used my hands to attempt to cover the gaps between the plastic and my neck but obviously it wasn't strong enough/i didnt have enough coverage or grip to fully cover the air from escaping. Anyway, I just sat there was I waited to feel something happen and well, nothing happened. Looking back I needed to use something like tape to cover up the gaps, but even then I've pretty sure it still wouldn't work. I can't remeber where i saw this, ive seen some study where someone wrapped a bag around their head and sealed it with tape or something, while someonr else in the room watched. They did go unconscious but SI kicked in and ripped a hole in the bag so air went through. I guess its just not a reliable method so thats why it didnt work for me. Even then I would most likely panic from air starvation and rip the bag off before unconsiousness even kicked in. My second attempt was an overdose via salt. You know, kitchen salt they use in cooking? My inspiration came from one case where someone drank an entire bottle of soy sauce and died the next hour. Unfortunatly I didn't get to succeed with this method. At first, I poured a tablespoon of salt into a water bottle and tried to drink it all down one night but it was so salty and tasted so bad that I almost vomitted. Did not drink enough for anything to happen other than feeling really weird and nauseous. My third attempt was another attempt at salt overdose. This time I tried to just eat the salt directly without mixing it with anything and of course it failed and I was left disapointed. My fourth attempt was yet again another salt overdose which went just as poorly (or good depending on your perspective on life). I researched the method somemore after failing and saw that you would have to eat an ungodly amount of salt to even fall unconsious depending on your body weight. even then it is a long and painfully drawn out process that is essentially, a non-method. Thank you for reading my post."
That's really an interesting ctb journey you've shared.. Thanks for sharing it in such great detail. Plastic bag didn't work for me either.
Salt water i have heard can be lethal due to sodium content but will not lead to death. I'm poor at chemistry so I'm only talking on the basis of what i have read.
Tried hanging myself from my closet pole.. with a bungee cord. :pfff:

I was a dumbass kid lol
Woah . I tried to strangulate myself with a vest😂 i applied all my strength and when nothing worked. I sat on my bed disappointed and then slept off crying😂😂
 
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Amara

Amara

Member
Aug 20, 2026
20
Sameee.. i too was mentally zoned out.. You used the right term for it. Yeah. And it's so difficult to find a method that'll work for sure. I'm trying for 23 years.. The number of attempts i have tried is in double digits🙃 still I'm here lol
I used to say that if I really wanted to die I would know how to do it properly. I was so wrong. Now I get frustrated of how hard it is. I'm scared to order SN and kinda desperate. I just want this to end... 😔 I don't want another stay in a mental institution..
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,455
I used to say that if I really wanted to die I would know how to do it properly. I was so wrong. Now I get frustrated of how hard it is. I'm scared to order SN and kinda desperate. I just want this to end... 😔 I don't want another stay in a mental institution..
I can feel your agony. I'm also without a method and I don't wanna end up in ICU again.
SN can be uncomfortable based on what I have read in many posts. People had glass of SN in their hands still they didn't feel like drinking it.
There are many methods as such, you'll have to narrow down on a few methods that you feel is the most apt for you to try. Do ur experiments with them to test. If you get promising results, perfect the method and then go for it
If i was living alone, i would try co method for it being painless
 
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roborabbit

Member
Aug 27, 2026
25
When I was like 13 I took like half a bottle of Tylenol and taped my mouth shut so when I went to bed if I threw up I would choke of the vomit and die. Woke up with a stomachache and went to school lol.

I wouldn't call it "silly" so much as uninformed but slitting my wrists at 16. I wimped out doing the second wrist and stopped and now my scars are uneven and it drives me bonkers. If I slit my wrist again its not to ctb it's to get my scars to match a little more.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,455
When I was like 13 I took like half a bottle of Tylenol and taped my mouth shut so when I went to bed if I threw up I would choke of the vomit and die. Woke up with a stomachache and went to school lol.

I wouldn't call it "silly" so much as uninformed but slitting my wrists at 16. I wimped out doing the second wrist and stopped and now my scars are uneven and it drives me bonkers. If I slit my wrist again its not to ctb it's to get my scars to match a little more.
Damn that's too harsh.. kudos to you for being too brave to do this
 
elipomeli

elipomeli

Dream and repeat
Aug 20, 2026
3
I tried to OD on paracetamol aswell. Ended up vomiting all day, not the best experience😭.
 
Somewhat Suicidal

Somewhat Suicidal

surviving anhedonia ≠ living
Aug 26, 2026
495
My only (pure impulse/in affect) attempt so far:

The day the love of my life broke up with me I stepped back into the room as far as I could and ran against my balcony barrier in hope I would just fall over by mass inertia. I didn't, instead I had terrible pain in the knees and hip for almost a week. The apartment was on the 3rd floor, so maybe roughly 10m down there. Not sure it would have worked in any case.

One of the reasons I can't stand a painful method, I just wanna fall asleep. shame that N is apparently impossible to come by.
 
imissmycatsomuch

imissmycatsomuch

Member
Aug 11, 2026
21
When I was 8 years old, I wrapped a scarf around my neck and pulled really hard thinking that I could easily strangle myself to death. Kids are dumb.
 
victimized

victimized

Member
Jun 28, 2026
15
I woke up one morning and tried holding my breath under my blanket thinking that the blanket was enough to stop my breathing😭😭😭

I also once tried overdosing on sertraline, though it just made me feel really hot and buzzing.

Dumb methods.
 
Carrot

Carrot

C:
Feb 25, 2025
611
I took a lot of Dextromethorphan that knocked me out. And another time I OD with non-OTC stuff.

Now I only have SN and I wish I had benzos..
 
roseblade

roseblade

they/them | Never wanted to grow up
Sep 1, 2026
27
Tried to give myself alcohol poisoning. All that ended up happening was I threw up, got so drunk I forgot what I was doing and then went to bed
 
rainhappy

rainhappy

I just want to die, it's so funny without a encore
Aug 29, 2026
41
With my 3DS charger...

Spoiler alert: it doesn't work 🤣!
 

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