Discussion What's the most silly method you've tried?

[ctb_warrior]

that was my first attempt at 12 as well lol

Mine at 13:

I wouldn't call those serious cause they all had one thing it common- low success chance. Cutting is like 1% fatality rate.
TW sh, cutting, explaining the attempt, mb might sound gory

Spoiler: Explanation

I first tried sh when I was around 12, had bunch of breaks tho. So I cut my veins before, as well as cutting to meat. At one point I started cutting much deeper often, so once upon a time I saw I got to meat and kept going, but the cut happened to be very near tendon, but I needed to expand it because I had better chances hitting artery that way, so I also tried to cut deeper, with avoiding the tendon, so I was kinda trying to push it away with not sharp part of a razor blade. Felt and sounded like tearing up paper. I am not sure if I reached artery , but I got a fountain like bleed, which I started panicking I'll loose my hand (because it was very near to tendon I first thought I tore it up or did something to a nerve considering sharp pain) so I pressed and dressed, but I think it might have been heavy bleeding from deeper tissue sprouting through small cut of outer layer. I was also too tired to continue cutting. I was desperate cause all my attempts before failed and I didn't have access to anything else, so had to "try my luck". Anyway, can't recommend. It smelled awful, also I got small infection (wound smelled rotten, despite my best attempts to take care of it) and it's much harder to crochet now

Also, happy for your health. Apparently it's really important to take care of it even if you aren't planning to stay on earth for long, because it is hard to ctb when you are physically weak.
Take care, fellow

I called it serious because cutting open the wrist needs some real shit in life, the level of desperation. Whenever i felt suicidal, i have always thought of sleeping pills or poison. And that's what I tried after strangulation. Unfortunately, N isn't available. I wish it was.
Yesssss you are exactly right!!!! That's why i do not try any methods that can cripple me and make my life worse such that i can't even ctb. This time I'm very careful. I'll not ctb until i have a concrete plan. Though I mostly gravitate to CO poisoning. Because that's what seems most peaceful to me out of all the available methods. Though it can be a challenge to achieve the concentration required for ctb.

 

[infinitesimal]

in childhood, the amount of times i tried to hang or suffocate myself using anything other than a rope. i wasnt aware of how to properly do it and locate the carotid. did virtually nothing just feel lightheaded

in recent memory, alcohol poisoning as an impulse "attempt" if i could even call it that. i was not at home and i had nothing i could use lethally, i was also not rational and thought of the first thing i could do to ctb. passed out before the alcohol got deadly. subsequently ended up waking up naked at a hotel and got the worst hangover of my life. really bad headache, but didnt even vomit

 

[ctb_warrior]

in childhood, the amount of times i tried to hang or suffocate myself using anything other than a rope. i wasnt aware of how to properly do it and locate the carotid. did virtually nothing just feel lightheaded

in recent memory, alcohol poisoning as an impulse "attempt" if i could even call it that. i was not at home and i had nothing i could use lethally, i was also not rational and thought of the first thing i could do to ctb. passed out before the alcohol got deadly. subsequently ended up waking up naked at a hotel and got the worst hangover of my life. really bad headache, but didnt even vomit

I can relate with both the parts. I have tried to choke myself a lot and at times it would make me dizzy. That lightheaded feeling.

I have got out of my senses many a times after having alcohol as I drink very high concentrated hard liquor like rum, vodka, gin. I sometimes mixed benzos with alcohol and ended up knocked out for days but no ctb
All my desperate tries went in vain.

 

[infinitesimal]

I can relate with both the parts. I have tried to choke myself a lot and at times it would make me dizzy. That lightheaded feeling.

I have got out of my senses many a times after having alcohol as I drink very high concentrated hard liquor like rum, vodka, gin. I sometimes mixed benzos with alcohol and ended up knocked out for days but no ctb
All my desperate tries went in vain.

uncoordinated hanging really is the worst… waste of time and effort trying to conquer si

ive also tried alcohol with medication. not because of ctb though, more like alcoholism… it sucks since i get a headache everytime because of some mild chemical interaction or whatnot. ive been told it can be lethal for me to take alcohol while on the type of medication i am, unlucky… got nothing but annoying side effects than anything serious, i end up wondering "why didnt the risk of death happen to me"!

 

[ctb_warrior]

uncoordinated hanging really is the worst… waste of time and effort trying to conquer si

ive also tried alcohol with medication. not because of ctb though, more like alcoholism… it sucks since i get a headache everytime because of some mild chemical interaction or whatnot. ive been told it can be lethal for me to take alcohol while on the type of medication i am, unlucky… got nothing but annoying side effects than anything serious, i end up wondering "why didnt the risk of death happen to me"!

Sameeeeeee I'm on medication for mdd. And my medications are not compatible with alcohol. But none of them run the risk of death I too wish if that could risk life, i would be so glad. Attaining peace is so difficult. Either by living peacefully or by departing from earth peacefully

 

[h4ppyhypoxia]

Out of desperation I have done the following silly mistakes:

1. OD on Benzo - Knocked me off for 6-7 days
2. Drinking phenyl - no effect except phenyl smell in breath
3. Eating 2 packets of RatKill - no effect
4. Eating crushed napthalene balls - no effect
5. Drinking mosquito poison - no effect
6. Trying to create CO by burning Kerosene - fire out of control, black smoke all over the room and not enough carbon monoxide.
7. Strangled myself with bare hands and then with towel - waste of time
8. Kept plastic bag on my face - the bag got moisture and the bag didn't have any space to breathe and i was soon gasping for breath.
9. Plastic bag + helium balloons - helium balloons didn't have pure helium so it was total waste of time. I had 5-6 big balloons to fill plastic bag with helium. But nope. It didn't work
10. I borrowed some arsenic salt from my school's chemistry lab and ingested it - i started vomiting non stop and I had to administer Arsenic 30 in Homeopathy to deal with it
11. OD on paracetamol - caused choking sensation in the chest. Used Carbo Veg 30 in Homeopathy to ease the discomfort

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as a very young child i would always try and hold my breath in an attempt to ctb, also, when my mum told me that robin williams hung himself i was about 9-10 years old, i asked her what that was, she wouldnt tell me, my child brain thought it would be able to deduce what hanging was, i thought it was when you put your head in a clothes hanger in a wardrobe and held your breath so youd be suffocated and then die from the fall when the hanger snapped, tried it and it will be no shock that i lived to tell the tale

 

[ctb_warrior]

as a very young child i would always try and hold my breath in an attempt to ctb, also, when my mum told me that robin williams hung himself i was about 9-10 years old, i asked her what that was, she wouldnt tell me, my child brain thought it would be able to deduce what hanging was, i thought it was when you put your head in a clothes hanger in a wardrobe and held your breath so youd be suffocated and then die from the fall when the hanger snapped, tried it and it will be no shock that i lived to tell the tale

Honestly, that's such an innocent perception you were too cute a kid for sure

 

[werewolfgirl]

I never actually went through with it at all, but I remember when I was like 13 I was planning to jump from the attic window lol. Definitely not a jump that would kill you by far unless you managed to make a horrible landing

 

[SealsOfTheArctic]

I took a load of Diclofenac tablets when I was drunk. I must have been about 15 or 16. Needless to say, nothing happened but I did feel very rough in the morning.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I never actually went through with it at all, but I remember when I was like 13 I was planning to jump from the attic window lol. Definitely not a jump that would kill you by far unless you managed to make a horrible landing

The innocence.
There is a pattern that i can note here, all of us thought of ctb at some point of time in our childhood in the age range 10-15. It's so bad that the world made us think like that when were so young.

I took a load of Diclofenac tablets when I was drunk. I must have been about 15 or 16. Needless to say, nothing happened but I did feel very rough in the morning.

Damn, that'd have really rough in the morning, alcohol+pain killer.
I have messed with nimesulide a lot. When i had to study for exam the night before, I used to take nimesulide and it would make me numb so I could study without fatigue

 

[limenlux]

I once took just enough propanolol and "nighttime sleep aid" to go on a bad trip that involved most of the objects in the room developing streaks of motion as I attempted to move, like contrails from airplanes. I didn't even get to meet the Hat Man.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I once took just enough propanolol and "nighttime sleep aid" to go on a bad trip that involved most of the objects in the room developing streaks of motion as I attempted to move, like contrails from airplanes. I didn't even get to meet the Hat Man.

That must have been an interesting experience. I tried the legal weed here known as bhang in India, they say it creates the same effect that you mentioned, but in my case, i just felt more hungry i ordered dominos pizza after that

 

[Agnes Tachyon]

i didnt act on it but i thought about ingesting raid bug spray....... then i read the intoxication symptoms. part of me still thinks if i ingest the enough amount i might die instantly ngl but is a bit of a gamble.​

honorific mention to when i strangle myself with my own hands or with a wire.

 

[ctb_warrior]

i didnt act on it but i thought about ingesting raid bug spray....... then i read the intoxication symptoms. part of me still thinks if i ingest the enough amount i might die instantly ngl but is a bit of a gamble.​

honorific mention to when i strangle myself with my own hands or with a wire.

I'm so glad you didn't ingest that spray it could have caused a lot of poisoning but not enough to reach the final destination.
Same, my first attempt was strangulation which didn't work despite applying all the pressure I could. I was so disappointed

 

[Gloomic]

Out of desperation I have done the following silly mistakes:

1. OD on Benzo - Knocked me off for 6-7 days
2. Drinking phenyl - no effect except phenyl smell in breath
3. Eating 2 packets of RatKill - no effect
4. Eating crushed napthalene balls - no effect
5. Drinking mosquito poison - no effect
6. Trying to create CO by burning Kerosene - fire out of control, black smoke all over the room and not enough carbon monoxide.
7. Strangled myself with bare hands and then with towel - waste of time
8. Kept plastic bag on my face - the bag got moisture and the bag didn't have any space to breathe and i was soon gasping for breath.
9. Plastic bag + helium balloons - helium balloons didn't have pure helium so it was total waste of time. I had 5-6 big balloons to fill plastic bag with helium. But nope. It didn't work
10. I borrowed some arsenic salt from my school's chemistry lab and ingested it - i started vomiting non stop and I had to administer Arsenic 30 in Homeopathy to deal with it
11. OD on paracetamol - caused choking sensation in the chest. Used Carbo Veg 30 in Homeopathy to ease the discomfort

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This is a fun question. When I was held in a room with only a toilet and flat mattress on a concrete slab, I had no blanket to hang myself with, so I tried to fall back off the inclined slab and break my neck against the metal edge of the toilet. It was a surreal experience that felt like I was off my feet for seconds too long, and I ended up jerking away at the last second and hit the back of my shoulder really hard.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i did the plastic bag thing twice as a kid

as an adult i also tried to do pills and alcohol but got so drunk i forgot to take the pills.

 

[Fish]

Yes, if this method could work, it would really be a revolution in SaSu.. Because everyone's like SN SN SN..
Then they'd be like NPK NPK NPK

Yeah
Personally can't wait for the The New Thing™ to be discovered. To me SN has become too well known and too heavily regulated. I think we collectively need to find something else

 

[ctb_warrior]

This is a fun question. When I was held in a room with only a toilet and flat mattress on a concrete slab, I had no blanket to hang myself with, so I tried to fall back off the inclined slab and break my neck against the metal edge of the toilet. It was a surreal experience that felt like I was off my feet for seconds too long, and I ended up jerking away at the last second and hit the back of my shoulder really hard.

Damn that must have been a rough experience, I'm glad you didn't end up breaking your neck. I have punched in the wall but never risked my head. Although, once when i was barely 6 years old, i fell down in such a way that a nail tore into my head. I got 4 stitches. I had fallen by mistake though. When they were stitching it, i had the most painful time of my life

i did the plastic bag thing twice as a kid

as an adult i also tried to do pills and alcohol but got so drunk i forgot to take the pills.

Plastic bag is an all time favourite but the SI kicks in so hard in this. Just an inert gas cylinder can make that difference.
Alcohol and pills are fun. Which alcohol did you get high on?

Yeah
Personally can't wait for the The New Thing™ to be discovered. To me SN has become too well known and too heavily regulated. I think we collectively need to find something else

Hell yeah we need our chemistry experts to brainstorm together and find out the next revolutionary peaceful exit route with the objects or stuff easily available to us.
The New Thing™ is soo needed at this time. SN was so readily available until last year in India. Now when i looked up yesterday, there's hardly any source for fresh pure SN.

 

[StarsAside]

"OD" on four (4) Tylenol at age 12. Did absolutely nothing.

 

[ctb_warrior]

"OD" on four (4) Tylenol at age 12. Did absolutely nothing.

That's so innocent of you i had 4 strips of it and i regretted badly

 

[ZEROEDOUT]

Obligatory Over The Counter OD Attempt. Benadryl and Nyquil cocktail.
Other than that, at some point in my youth I drank a very small amount of bleach surface cleaner.

I don't miss impulsive attempts and their aftermath.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Obligatory Over The Counter OD Attempt. Benadryl and Nyquil cocktail.
Other than that, at some point in my youth I drank a very small amount of bleach surface cleaner.

I don't miss impulsive attempts and their aftermath.

That's interesting. When i was 15, i just drank whole bottle of benadryl and i was sleepy within 30 minutes.
How did you manage after having bleach surface cleaner? It's really the most painful method to try.
I was considering drainex once, but just a few months after, someone in my own apartment had drainex and it generated so much heat within his body that he had to ultimately jump from 9th floor of the building. Unimaginable suffering

 

[ZEROEDOUT]

That's interesting. When i was 15, i just drank whole bottle of benadryl and i was sleepy within 30 minutes.
How did you manage after having bleach surface cleaner? It's really the most painful method to try.
I was considering drainex once, but just a few months after, someone in my own apartment had drainex and it generated so much heat within his body that he had to ultimately jump from 9th floor of the building. Unimaginable suffering

Very Very small amount. I honestly hadn't even remembered it as an earnest attempt until reading this thread.
This was probably when I was around 11 and I never received medical attention or anything regarding it after the fact. All I can particularly remember is the emotional distress rather than any physical.

Otherwise I had drank half a bottle of Nyquil paired with an odd amount of Benadryl and all I remember of that is losing consciousness in the ER and trying to keep count of the ceiling tiles. A lot of that was a blur. In retrospect it probably was never going to be enough to off me for real, which was the only reason I turned to medical aid in that circumstance.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Very Very small amount. I honestly hadn't even remembered it as an earnest attempt until reading this thread.
This was probably when I was around 11 and I never received medical attention or anything regarding it after the fact. All I can particularly remember is the emotional distress rather than any physical.

Otherwise I had drank half a bottle of Nyquil paired with an odd amount of Benadryl and all I remember of that is losing consciousness in the ER and trying to keep count of the ceiling tiles. A lot of that was a blur. In retrospect it probably was never going to be enough to off me for real, which was the only reason I turned to medical aid in that circumstance.

Benadryl and Nyquil can literally hit the brain really hard. I just imagined what happened to me when I had taken Benadryl, there was a strange heaviness in my head.

How's things going for you now?

 

[monkeyfff]

50 mg of nutmeg. Nauseating! Never again! I didn't even experience getting high. Just fell asleep and later woke up feeling the after effects of it. Awful.

 

[ctb_warrior]

50 mg of nutmeg. Nauseating! Never again! I didn't even experience getting high. Just fell asleep and later woke up feeling the after effects of it. Awful.

That's interesting. I never knew nutmeg could cause hallucinations. I just checked on Google the side effects of having a huge quantity of it.

 

[ZEROEDOUT]

Benadryl and Nyquil can literally hit the brain really hard. I just imagined what happened to me when I had taken Benadryl, there was a strange heaviness in my head.

How's things going for you now?

Physically I experience a lot of brain fog, nerve damage, and occasional loss of control of my hands, but I suspect that has more to do with a combination of mental fatigue and prescription drug I was on for a while, as it was a problem beforehand. Although I was still on the tailend of that prescription when I had attempted, so if the OD contributed or worsened any cognitive decline, I hadn't associated the two.
Situationally I've gotten to the position where I'm capable of making an informed and more intentional attempt. So better on that front depending on perspective.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Physically I experience a lot of brain fog, nerve damage, and occasional loss of control of my hands, but I suspect that has more to do with a combination of mental fatigue and prescription drug I was on for a while, as it was a problem beforehand. Although I was still on the tailend of that prescription when I had attempted, so if the OD contributed or worsened any cognitive decline, I hadn't associated the two.
Situationally I've gotten to the position where I'm capable of making an informed and more intentional attempt. So better on that front depending on perspective.

Good to hear that you are in control.
Due to these mdd medicines, as a side effect, my hands and fingers were shaking a lot, even after controlling it hard, it didn't help much. It gradually got corrected.