What's stopping you from doing it now?

[Sensei]

Small potentials of hope.

Same here. My odds aren't too hot, but I'm not prepared to give up yet.

 

[WaitingWesting]

I have my first grandchild on the way. My mother was not there for me when i became a mother and i could not imagine not being there for my daughter and holding her hand during this time in her life.

 

[FatalSystemError591]

I don't know if it is enough to be considered SI but when I think about going through with it, I freeze.

And my gf has already been through a lot regarding death and she seems to love me, somehow. She knows I want to ctb, but I know if I did she would find a way to blame herself, despite the fact that she is the one reason I lived a year longer than anticipated

 

[Dark Spring]

I feel that I'm a coward and that I care a lot about my brothers and how they will be if I CTB

 

[Ghost2211]

Same here. My odds aren't too hot, but I'm not prepared to give up yet.

One day at a time friend. Hopefully we both get our saving grace.

 

[LastWhisper]

A few people needs my support (I know, it's funny and ridiculous because I'm really useless) to manage their life, so until they're done with that I'm still here, but it should not take so much time.

 

[gcarb]

Hope for a better future and that one day I will not-know and live.

 

[TheEndisNear121200]

I'm never home alone because of the pandemic. I only need a few hours alone and I will no longer be here

 

[BridgeJumper]

Survival instinct and crippling pain

 

[woxihuanni]

I don't know how I will be alone in the house because of lockdown. Even SI has fucked off, that is the only problem that remains.

 

[Rn110bg101]

I'm waiting for a good time where my mother will be outside of the house. That will be either soon, or far off (everyone keeps talking about reconfinement…)

 

[greebo6]

The date I picked hasn't come around yet and I'd kind of like to stick to it for some reason .
( Don't ask me why .I know its illogical. )

 

[I screwed up]

SI and the fact I m a freakin gutless chicken to ctb. I hate myself .. No guts, no resources and bloody SI

 

[whywere]

Some hope, I would like to have a girl or boy friend once in my life. SI is also there. I would like to move to Hawai'i to either live or ctb.

 

[dysfunctional]

SI and I can't get past what it would do to my family. Also I'm getting slightly better from my bipolar depression.

 

[TripleA]

Im waiting for my ordered SN

 

[BPD Barbie]

My stubbornness. I'm too stubborn to completely give up and admit defeat. Also I'm stuck in a limbo of wanting to die and not wanting to die, I just go round and round in circles.

 

[BipolarGuy]

My stubbornness. I'm too stubborn to completely give up and admit defeat. Also I'm stuck in a limbo of wanting to die and not wanting to die, I just go round and round in circles.

You could have said:

"I can't die, I have a suicide forum to moderate"

 

[MrBlue]

I don't have any completley reliable methods atm, and members of my family have had to deal with people closer to them ctb before so I'm finding it difficult to overcome the guilt of them dealing with it again. I know I'll kill myself eventually, I just might have to hold on and suffer into my late 20/30's before my loneliness catches up to me.

 

[bigdog]

I am afraid of pain. I was ready to do it few times on impulses. My method is SN + benzos
And I don't want to fuck it up

 

[Bull in a China shop]

Just getting money together, have looked into being cremated( if my body does come back into shore) they pick your body up no messing, no funeral just straight to it, few more things to sell then should be sorted.

 

[Soulless Angel]

I'm living for everyone else, I no longer get time alone, the next time I try it will be a 3am attempt, everyones snoring no one will notice me missing, but I don't know when i will get that time, that's why I am still here

 

[JustABunchOfAtoms]

Being a mental hospital

 

[Pho3nix]

The lack of a proper method and the fact that I might get caught.

 

[elzo5678]

It's my birthday next Monday and I'm celebrating it with my boyfriend in another city. If I didnt have him and this trip to look forward to, I wouldnt hesitate one moment.

 

[Meditation guide]

I would like to move to Hawai'i to either live or ctb.

It's an incredibly small island and it's surprisingly easy to get stir crazy on a little island, go batty from it after a few months.

 

[whywere]

It's an incredibly small island and it's surprisingly easy to get stir crazy on a little island, go batty from it after a few months.

i know in advance, cheesy and maybe in poor taste, but I need a laugh today, as far as go batty from it in a few months of being in Hawai'i, but I am batty already! I do agree that it is a small island, but there are other islands in the chain and airlines fly between them for like around $65 each way. Also it is kinda midway between USA mainland and Australia, New Zealand, Japan..etc...

 

[Meditation guide]

Also it is kinda midway between USA mainland and Australia, New Zealand, Japan..etc...

It's very nice if you can afford it. Kind of expensive. I've lived there and miss it. Nice if you like beaches.

 

[whywere]

It's very nice if you can afford it. Kind of expensive. I've lived there and miss it. Nice if you like beaches.

I totally agree that it is more expensive. i really love the North Shore of Oahu, beautiful beaches, look over my shoulder at the mountains in the background and of course ALL of the darn wild chickens running around. I am by myself, and I do not have alot of money BUT I do not need much and I have water budget tastes. I grew up ultra poor and it has always been ingrained in me to be frugal. Have to ask @Meditation guide, would you go back and live in Hawai'i?

 

[Meditation guide]

would you go back and live in Hawai'i?

Yes if I had plenty of money. The clean air and climate would probably cure most of my problems with breathing. I was incredibly healthy when I lived there.