muffin222
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2020
- 1,187
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That's a good question. The last few days I've been unable to get out of bed. I'm thinking more about that veil of death I'll have to cross. The fact that I'll be alone, how I've been ungrateful to my parents who did their best despite being objectively incompatible. The fact that I once in fact had potential, was on a path and stepped off at some point I still can't identify. There's really no reason to stay, everyone has a purpose and mine's gone. I want to be at peace but I'm scared that's not what's waiting for me. It wasn't here, who's to say I'll be safer there?
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,082
I have the same fears. Not knowing what will happen, even if my method will work or make things much worse. What comes after this? It's a big unknown however you look at it.
cii
"Well, it's groundhog day. Again."
- Oct 24, 2020
- 55
Family might go to jail for suicide abetment cuz my dad is a psycho and he would lie and say they are the reason for my death etc. My death will already cause them grief, I don't need to add jail time to it.
so I need to either move out or have a damn good reason, like blame it on failing college so he can't go after my family. Whichever thing happens first, college has been going pretty bad lately.
so I need to either move out or have a damn good reason, like blame it on failing college so he can't go after my family. Whichever thing happens first, college has been going pretty bad lately.
The only thing holding me back is my wife. Otherwise, I would've done it a long time ago. She is my tutor and is always with me.
Almost everyday is a bad day but today has been a rollercoaster of emotions. I feel really bad today. I wish I could CTB today. So tired of feeling hopeless, like a failure, full of guilt. I feel less than nothing. Besides if I do it, i'll become another statistic. I'm simply tired, my life is a mess. Don't know about you, but the emotional pain is unreal. I'll be looking for methods... however i'll like to donate my organs so my ending have some kind of purpose. That last thing is kind of Ironic isn't it.
Almost everyday is a bad day but today has been a rollercoaster of emotions. I feel really bad today. I wish I could CTB today. So tired of feeling hopeless, like a failure, full of guilt. I feel less than nothing. Besides if I do it, i'll become another statistic. I'm simply tired, my life is a mess. Don't know about you, but the emotional pain is unreal. I'll be looking for methods... however i'll like to donate my organs so my ending have some kind of purpose. That last thing is kind of Ironic isn't it.
People depend on me and mostly cowardly:(,i feel like lifes a punishment for,I feel I deserve all the worst things to ever happen happen to me,I like making myself miserable more than happy,what is that even.if I had no one I would have died 10 years ago
specklenought
Internet Cry Baby
- Oct 2, 2020
- 44
I have a few articles and other commissions I want to fulfill before I go. You know, honour those commitments (maybe its just the survival instinct kicking in to make excuses).
Bullit
Mage
- May 6, 2021
- 504
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,418
I think methods hold me back. It is hard to take our own lives. Methods can easily go wrong and many are hard to do because of the survival instinct. One day I will get desperate though.
Xaxysh
Member
- Oct 28, 2020
- 99
Little hope I will be able to emigrate, but it's so little I would just do it if I had a rope or sn
Finances. I truly want to go however I have to make sure I am completely at peace before I do it. All my debts must be paid and I'm almost there
