What's keeping you here

[Squiddy]

Family and fear of an afterlife

 

[Quitter]

Fear and guilt.

If I kill myself now it will cause enormous amounts of trouble and grief to someone I love.

 

[Painpleasure]

I have admittedly made peace with my imminent death, be it by my own hand or other causes. It follows then, that I do not particularly fear death itself or the process involved in reaching death.

I suppose my greatest fear is that of failure which may lead to life in a permanent vegetative state. This is one cause "pushing" me from death as opposed to pulling me to life.


The only aspects of life which "pull" or "draw" to me sentience life are experiencing indelible connections with friends and family. This is generally easy for me to achieve without much effort given my largely non judgemental approach to people and the various circumstances they face.

 

[hahabye]

My cat. Of course I'll make sure there's somebody to take care of her, but everytime I look at her I just start crying. I just know I'll be missing her so much in those last few moments

 

[k75]

I want to be 1000% certain.

I need to perfect my method because I don't intend to be a repeat attempter or harm myself.

I have a tiny fantasy of seeing my family (especially my son) one more time. We live several states apart. I know that won't happen, though. But it's a nice thought.

I'm not done tying up loose ends, like packing my apartment. It's very important to me to get that done first, so my best friend doesn't have to do it later. I promised myself that above all else, I'd at least stick around for as long as that chore takes. It's just taking a lot longer than I ever planned.

My cat. I'm not ready to let her go. She's 15, and I'm all she's really known since she was born.