What would you want to fix so you didnt have to take your life?

[DontFearTheReaper]

Drop the self loathing, pick up some passion and purpose. Basically I need for my life to matter.

I think that too, so I went out at night to clean the shared washing room. I think if I have no purpose at all, at least I can help and make others life some better.

 

[LoNatural]

Be in the top 20% on looks and indulge in sex

 

[TheRiverStyz]

I want a full-time job that suits my degree and skill set and I want to lose 20kg of weight, particularly on my upper arms and thighs.

 

[HelpPlease]

Time machine- no drugs- no drs - no unprotected sex

 

[bacardirum]

If other people never had to die it would be easier, I would fix that.

 

[Kuris]

My personality. If I could act like the "monkeys" I've met who don't care about anyone or anything. I might have a chance of fixing things.

 

[First loss]

My looks
My mental capacity
My relationship with my parents
Less failure
My love life

 

[Soul]

If we were all born with an expiry date we could make better use of our time (whatever we each mean by "better") ... but since that's not within easy reach I'll settle for Easy Exit Stations, conveniently located and offering peaceful death to anyone who requires it (with counselling and cooling-off periods as appropriate). Dinner service, music and photographers available.

 

[LaBrava]

Just money really. Enough to allow me to leave the hell of bullying and stress that is the workplace, live in a decent private space and just watch movies, read etc and retire now at age 52. Wouldn't expect miracles like having a partner, being well treated by others, not having an awful childhood, having supportive parents etc. Just peaceful solitude would be fine. But sadly not attainable.

 

[Monster]

Humanity

 

[maka]

Being born into a loving family. That's all I really ever wanted.

 

[JoeFailure]

Money mostly. I really feel like I could have had a great rest of my life with helping people and working with kids with autism. But I screwed up.

Also it's kind of sad that I'll essentially die a 34 or 35 year old virgin because of what happened to me sexually when I was young. I'm actually a healthy, fit, decent looking dude who's turned down advances because I was freaked out about sex.

What a disaster of a life. 34, couple thousand in the bank, make 47k, no house, just an apartment and a leased car, no sex.

What's even crazier is I was actually a happy guy through most of this, literally the most I've ever had in my bank account in my life was $7,000. But I didn't think I'd ever want a partner till now so I just didn't care. Now that I do...it's game over. I'm never going to have the money to have a relationship.

 

[KnightOfEnceladus]

Money. It's true that money can't buy happiness, but it does buy security which is one of the prerequisites for happiness. I don't even want to be rich, just safe. Not worrying about homelessness all the time.

 

[toolateforme]

it's really easy for me to say everything but i guess some things that really stick out to me are my mental health, personality, looks, and the very things that virtually mandate me to ctb in order to right my wrongs... since time machines don't exist

 

[CursedForDisaster]

Definitely go back in time to relive some things differently

 

[LastFlowers]

My face, the absence of a time machine

 

[azucaramargo]

Fix my brain so I don't wake up feeling sad for no reason, and fix my mind so that I could understand other people better. I feel like I have social blindness most of the time

In your case, Bacon cheeseburger, I would like to disagree with you. From your posts, you seem very empathetic & highly attuned to other people.

But, you put into words one of the things I'd like to change, too: more adept at social dealings &improved ability to read people's motivations (i.e., agendas (.

 

[azucaramargo]

My appearance, my job, my bank account.

 

[throwaway123]

Everything! Seriously.

this

 

[Username786]

There are plenty of things I'd like to change about mistakes I've made in the past, but I know that isn't realistic. All I can do is try to suck less in the future. What I really want is my health back. With that, I could solve so many other problems. That is very unlikely to happen though. So it goes.

 

[sunny.sativa]

Me. My personality. I want to be a different person.. be me, but ..not me.
I'm so mean and often the most cruel, sarcastic shit dumps out of my mouth, unnecessarily, without my permission. It's like my default mode is just.. asshole. I'm just an asshole. Especially to the ones I love. I make my mom and little brother feel stupid and my dad feels unappreciated. I don't truly feel this way inside and of course they don't believe when I tell them this. They get angry when I counter my actions with my words because of course,"actions speak louder than words" and such. They get confused, they want to know why I say one thing and do another. They're so wonderful and I wish I could show them.

A young, fairly educated woman like myself should be kind, loving, encouraging and nurturing and I'm just so fucking mean. I hate myself so much.

The thing is, I know I can change. This is in my control but I can't seem to understand how to control it yet. When I do, I end up snapping eventually and losing my shit and waking up in a ward or getting kicked out of my living space for whatever I said or did.

I'm so tired of my bullshit.

 

[bruisedmind]

I'd want to stop losing things that mean everything to me. I want the guy I was dating back. I want my home back, my driving license, my dog. My hope that I can pick myself up again

 

[Marz]

•Not being born in Venezuela.
•Having competent parents that would keep their love affairs in check and not involve their young children in it.
•Not having hormonal disorders that kept my atenttion span of a goldfish so I could've gotten decent grades at school and didn't trigger my depression and anxiety.
•Having aptitudes desirable for employers instead of being lazy, distractable, forgetful, depressive and unconscientious.
•Having a desire to achieve something in life.

 

[wanttodie]

no don't want to fix it sick of living and life an want to end my life

 

[ExitTheDay]

Going to college and gaining knowledge of something that interests me, not because I would want to "make something of myself" as all of the sheep like to say, because that's just giving in to conformity, and conformity is just betrayal to be honest... I want my mind to be expanded as much as possible

 

[ZixivaldYrxes]

A better question for me would be what would I have to change so that I can kill myself peacefully, and knowing that it's the right decision? I don't want to not reject the world, I want to reject it the right way.

 

[WideAwake]

I made a bad business decision. Started a business where I've risked everything and the business is failing. I feel like a total failure, and I will likely be facing bankruptcy within the year. So the only hope I have is to turn the business around or take my licks and become indigent. I feel trapped and the amount of stress is unbearable. I have been having dark thoughts the past few months for the first time in my life, and I can't seem to get them out of my head. None of this is worth killing myself over, but it's an easier fix than facing the problem and consequences. Sigh.

 

[spanishguy22]

My brain isn't fixeable so thank you I'll stick to the only way out

 

[dreamsofdestruction]

Having some people I feel close to and a purpose in life that would make it worth the suffering.

 

[Freedom21]

Terrible ibs that involves cramping gas that makes me look 9 months pregnant and bathroom urgency. I could live if it was healed been dealing with it for a year and a half. I believe in Gods paganism if I give everything for a two months and pray to be healed should I put off death. I haven't been praying regularly because of depression. Should I try to live?