WHAT WOULD CHANGE YOUR MIND ABOUT CTB?

[ctbusser]

I just want my life before psychosis. I used to be successful . I had a house, job, and plenty of money. Now I have crazy debt to the IRS.

Money would fix a lot of my problems. Good mental health would be great.

And if I don't get that… having a great girlfriend would go a long way!

Oh man, I'm in same situation, after half year of falling down I'm 50/50 ctb or continue fighting my mental and life problems

 

[MentalFuneral]

If I was born with the right kind of brain

 

[lucmucpuc]

if they found a cure for my illness.

 

[ilovenoodles]

honestly, having a purpose in life like a clear cut purpose. i guess starting a cute little family of my own would be nice

 

[nibbleone]

Oh man, I'm in same situation, after half year of falling down I'm 50/50 ctb or continue fighting my mental and life problems

I'm open to chatting sometime.

 

[ginslinger23]

Not being ill

 

[iamanavalanche]

if i had the means to help other people, surely i would live longer. but i dont want a life where i dont ctb

 

[Trav1989]

Hmmm.... My ex-wife would have to show up on my doorstep telling me that she cut off her insane "friends" who pushed her into prostitution and drug use, she would have to apologize for never taking my side and caving to peer pressure at every opportunity (nearly impossible for her), and she would have to be holding the nearly $40,000 she stole from my bank account over 2 years.

Then I'd probably reconsider CTB but since we don't live in a Hallmark movie I won't hold my breath until I receive my SN and such is managed for me.

If there is some form of "afterlife" instead of nothingness I can only hope that such consists of me getting to be with her 9even if it isn't actually her) and I get to live in some grandiose scaled illusion where everything worked out for everyone I knew and loved. At this point even being subjected to a lie for eternity would be preferable to living in a reality where everything had fallen apart and I was left with nothing but memories and regrets for outcomes that I had little to no control over because everyone ignored my advice and let themselves be ruled by their emotions during their most vulnerable moments which led them to ruin and even if I were to pick up the scraps and put them back together I'm not sure I'd want to witness the results...

I mean, my wife has been with well over a hundred men I'd wager in the last year alone and was a broken shell of herself last I heard so that ship sailed a while ago.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

If someone could be there for me, I wouldn't do it. However, I don't think it's really right to put that on someone…

 

[godsavemebrickbrick]

Immense wealth with no responsibilities and maybe some drugs,

It's nice to imagine, being able to buy my best friend gifts all day and going anywhere we want. Sure, I'd probably still live with immense guilt and depression once the fun's over at the end of the day, but I think I'd be able to tolerate it.

Unfortunately, unless some nice millionaire or billionaire wants to bless me, this is impossible.

 

[Manfrotto99]

A dog and a home with a garden where I could feel safe and at peace. Something the average person in the Western World just takes for granted but not possible for me anymore.

 

[banger12]

Time machine + knowledge of other factors that influenced my health and breakdown of my mental acuity. Prevent the injury and other things that helped it ruin me.

Tl;dr nothing can lol. Only imaginary shit that can't happen.

 

[myusername]

A good hearted loving partner.

 

[Willy Wonka]

If I'd somehow figure out how to get stuff done and then do it consistently + overcoming my addictions - then I could see myself making money and with that I could probably work on physical and mental issues (or fly to Peru).

But yeah, I'm not sure how likely that is to happen. It's not that I started trying yesterday, you know...

 

[Gstreater]

I think being loved by someone where I don't have to act like someone I'm not. Where I can open about how feel about them others and myself without losing their love or them distancing themselves.

 

[ItsyBitsyWeetard]

i would need my visual snow syndrome to completely disappear with all the symptoms (brainfog tinnitus etc) same goes with the depression anxiety and social anxiety from that point on i can fix my life on my own i wouldnt mind a time machine tho i would love to go back to 2020 and live from that point on without symptoms that would put me in an infinitely better position in life today

 

[Shrike]

Any one of these three would do it:
- a close bond with someone where I can be myself and the other person actually likes me, the real me, and I like them, too; it's a balanced relationship of equals and we support each other through life
- a fulfilling job that engages my talents and produces something valuable
- the capability of being a top performer in something, could be lots of different things like playing a sport well, being a skilled speedrunner, or writing a novel that resonates with people

 

[Davey40210]

I would definitely want my ex gf back with me. But my own mind will make her leave again anyway. So its no use. I just want to leave this place.

 

[TraumaEscapee:)]

If the two men who meant the world to me, forgave me for a mistake I made (email I sent a few months ago) and gave me another chance to have a relationship with them and move back into their home. I miss them dearly and think about them daily. I live with the regret of my actions every day. I'm very sad without them. I got cut of when I rang one not long ago.

 

[noname37]

Just being someone else and having different people around me

 

[AresCohere]

Honestly if I somehow got a "proper" job or similar and actually had a path forward I could live on but even then it's been miserable so far and getting worse it won't get better, at best will will remain the same as now.

 

[howunfortunateforme]

i would need my visual snow syndrome to completely disappear with all the symptoms (brainfog tinnitus etc) same goes with the depression anxiety and social anxiety from that point on i can fix my life on my own i wouldnt mind a time machine tho i would love to go back to 2020 and live from that point on without symptoms that would put me in an infinitely better position in life today

We have something there is no cure for and never will be death is only out for me Ps mine was from lexapro

 

[pachamacha]

some matrix shit like waking up to reality it was a simulation error in testing everything makes sense when i regain consousness and back to reality like waking from a nightmare these thoughts of being trapped in a simulation have been years of thinking notjing makes sense my reality is never acknowledged i feel like trapped in a life simulation npcs recycled dialouge options my words never impact im powerless to change nobody or anything around me has connection in a way that acknowledges my escistest i am not real i am not part of what's around me, the feeling is like a simulation false sense of exsistence

anyway basically that would be relief beyond relief this life is not the actual reality i just need to wake up to it like snap out of some hypnosis or trance bad trip

 

[stupidmonkey]

if my mother never killed herself

 

[pariah80]

What would change my mind borders along the lines of fantasy at this point. The things I want in this life aren't available to me or don't exist. I guess, if we're just fantasizing, a purpose and the means, resources, and support to carry out that purpose. I'd want a loving wife who really loved, respected, and was loyal to me. A few loyal, trustworthy friends who I could really confide in and who understood me. A private life with a nice home. And to live in a world that wasn't a hellscape.

Save for that... nothing. I don't want to be comfortable in hell.

 

[overcastdays]

If all that is wrong with me, and everything that entails got magically resolved, I guess. Not being an absolute failure of a human being would be nice.

 

[tbh2023]

Nothing like that. Im searching-still want to kms but I'm not sure if I want to use sn.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

If my wife would take me back I'd at least stick around longer for the sake of our children.

Alternatively I'd reconsider CTB if there was a really good social safety net for me, with housing and health care, and I could find friends and a romantic partner.

My problem is that mental illness on top of disasterous events have destroyed my life this year. Only magic could fix my brain and repair my life enough to make me feel happy and hopeful again, which is what I really need to truly change my mind about CTB.

 

[ma0]

If I had someone who had the capacity to take things seriously and who I could actually trust then my life would be infinite times better.

If I also somehow overcame my procrastination and actually started working on projects I had put off for so long then that would also be good.

 

[SA1994EC]

Nothing,, after I got permanent physical damages.
Before that, I used to feel enough money would do it since I totally gave up on my relationship in any forms with anyone.
Before that, I thought I would need the connection with humans and financial stability.
Before that, I thought I would want a meaningful career in addition to money and love.
Now, I cannot recognize myself anymore.