WHAT WOULD CHANGE YOUR MIND ABOUT CTB?

[nibbleone]

I just want my life before psychosis. I used to be successful . I had a house, job, and plenty of money. Now I have crazy debt to the IRS.

Money would fix a lot of my problems. Good mental health would be great.

And if I don't get that… having a great girlfriend would go a long way!

 

[mrtime87]

If I were a different person with a different past.

 

[Me Me Me]

The only way to avoid the inevitable is if the love of my life comes back to me. Which isn't going to happen.

The only thing that'll take away all the pain is if my former girlfriend reconciles with me.

I think we are in the same boat

 

[RosebyAnyName]

Being able to move out. At least then I can attempt to live the life I want to, and if I fail then I can at least say I tried. Not even having the choice is unbearable.

That, and not having a certain past experience that haunts me to this day.

 

[shironeko]

If this world can treat me better, and give me what I deserved. I want the same amount of fulfillment to balance with my pain.

Impossible isn't it?

 

[lacrimosa]

After my second serious attempt, after seeing what it did to my family and knowing the devastation it would cause. I suppose I am lucky to have survived and blessed that my family cares about me even though I am a total fuck up.

Suffice to say, I was sectioned and the doctors whom tended to my mental health were second to none. I couldn't have asked for a better team of health care providers and I live in a country where it's pure luck of the draw for which doctor you will get as health care is all public here.

Also, you fine folks want to keep me going as you are kind and we're in this struggle together.

Kindness seems to be a rarity these days so thanks for that!

 

[Wolf Girl]

Maybe if I could be in a healthy marriage and be a homemaker and didn't have to work.

 

[newlifeimmigration]

I just want a pat on the head from someone I care about. The bar is so low

 

[BirdWithoutWings]

Being able to find employment again that actually pays enough to survive. I thought love would help, but I'm realizing that it's incredibly selfish of me to use another person as a crutch just so that I don't go off the deep end. But in an ideal world, a healthy relationship where my partner actually likes me + employment would be pretty much all I'd need.

 

[AAE]

I want my mom back because nobody else could ever love me and we're like one person, the phantom pain is excruciating! Then I'd want us to be healthier like before the many years of extreme noise terror from neighbors, and I want us to be able to have our dream come true, to have an own house outside of this insane society where nobody can ever hurt us again. Or preferably just live here in our home like it was 30+ years ago when people weren't allowed to kill others with long time torture and be supported by the landlord. I can't handle the endless pain!

 

[whotookmylexapro]

If my OCD suddenly disappears and i forget about all the thoughts that trouble me, then i would reconsider ctb

Of course that is unlikely but
If i can finally find a treatment that atleast manages my OCD and makes life bearable, i would also reconsider. I have tried a numerous amount of treatments. My next option is Spravato or ketamine infusions so fingers crossed

 

[BlockHammer]

If society were actually trying to change the current living conditioned, gave everyone an equal opportunity to get a job that can devolop your career and salary, get rid of those social expetation about men rather than gaslight them that living in poverty is okay or say things like being undesirable is okay

If those conditioned is meet, then i'll drop my ctb plan

 

[11April]

The love of one specific person. And it will change instantly. I won't even think about it. My thoughts will immediately switch to this person and how to make him happy. And not a single thought about ctb. But, unfortunately for me, this is no longer realistic.

However, I will still believe that ctb is everyone's choice.

 

[Just_Another_Person]

Money. Like millions of dollars/euros. I would be able to pay everything and not depend on anyone ever again. I could pay my FFS and other surgeries. Could move to another place that is more tolerant.

 

[alivefornow]

A large sum of money. I came to understand that I want to die because I don't want to go through the trouble of actually building a life.

 

[DanielDanDean]

Maybe with 7 000 000 euros I'd be able to afford buying a house in a remote location and quit that shitty life, shitty job, shitty family, shitty relationship, just being chill all alone, just minding my own stuff and make trips around the world when my social battery would be charged.
No need to work, independance from others and not needing to worry about everything that money can fix
I would maybe still not be "happy" but I wouldn't want to CTB

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Simple. A girlfriend who loves and supports me that I would equally love and support.

So basically nothing realistic for me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't think anything could 'save' me now. I'd have to be a different person and I can't be bothered to face my fears to become that person. I have tried in the past though.

I miss you @Unattainable666 . I don't think you're with us anymore. I hope she found her peace.

 

[Priestess]

Having financial security. I'm a stroke and cancer patient, and they keep reassessing me for my disability benefits. Sometimes they award me zero points and stop them, then I have to go through appeal. During that time I have no money and rack up huge debt trying to stay alive. When I win the appeal and get backpay, it's never enough to pay off all the interest from the debt. I sink further into debt each time. And the awards are so short. The longest I've had is two years before they start assessing me again. I never have any financial security. I'm 2K in an overdraft because of this. I can't buy food, I'm starving. Some kind person recently gave me £300 as charity, and I was able to feed myself for a couple of weeks, but then the bank took the rest in interest and charges. The food bank is so difficult and time consuming to access, and I can't eat a lot of what they give any way as my cancer treatment has given me many food intolerances.

 

[11April]

The only way to avoid the inevitable is if the love of my life comes back to me. Which isn't going to happen.

I understand you so well. From the first to the last word.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Enough money until I die naturally without having to become a wage slave to live the life I wanna live. It's as easy as that.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Nothing.

I don't want anything from this evil world and evil life
No one could convince me that anything has any meaning , value, or importance, or that anything matters

The only things that matter to me are avoiding unbearable pain and extreme suffering. Then avoiding any other pain , suffering, problems, work, chores . The only way to do that is my suicide asap

Money and other things are important as Long as I can use those to suicide asap or avoid suffering. But of course I only suffer because I haven't been able to kill myself yet

The only reason I work is to make money for suicide and groceries, housing etc. have to eat because I'm alive and the hunger and addiction to food are too strong. So the only reason I do anything is because I haven't killed myself I don't want to do all that work and chores nor eat food

 

[badK9wolf]

enough money to get out of debt, a job i don't hate

 

[ijustwishtodie]

If I was able to be a neet billionaire and be absolutely lazy to where I don't have to wage slave or do any chores, I'd change my mind for ctb but only for a few years as I'd still want to die young

 

[HereIGoAgain24]

Any sign that the world was getting better- that our leaders were starting to take our existential threats seriously, that we could get of this apocalyptic predicament we've found ourselves in, that people were just going to be a little nicer and willing to help each other. Unfortunately, greed and power-madness run rampant, leaving the rest of us to suffer- and so there's nothing we can do.

 

[LionDad]

I don't think there is anything anymore. There's been times in my life where I've been happy living but, without fail, I always feel this way again. I don't have faith or trust in good things to last and I'm so busy waiting on it to go bad that I turn it bad. Feels like the only true constant is overwhelming unhappiness

 

[canijo]

I like to think that if my family really offered to talk, it'll help me a lot (many more problems though, but that alone would certainly help and postpone me wanting to CTB). It's just that for some cryptic reason they refuse anything of the sort.

Long ago my mother offered to forgive "ME" if we just don't talk about the past. It didn't go well.

I'm unable to forget nor forgive, without actually addressing a problem, i just postpone it and then it bursts even worse

 

[saturn1402]

My ex choosing me and make it work properly and for good this time. But it won't happen so I am rather ready to CTB

 

[redkitsune98]

a phone call from my ex begging me to save myself and come back to him once i'm out of the dark

 

[Ol Messier 87]

If I could change my mind, literally I mean.