Do you ever feel jealous of people with seemingly arbitrary reasons to live?

[anch]

Perhaps the title is worded a bit strongly, but I can't really explain it any other way. While there's of course no "wrong" reasons to live or anything like that, in my mind at least, it sometimes feels like people name whatever reason they think of in the moment as to why they keep going, but I think there's more often than not something else underneath that reason, that if changes were to happen or this deeper will to live disappeared, the other reasons they came up with would go out the window.

Do you sometimes wish that you could find any such thing to make you feel like you want keep going? Or are you completely fine with wanting to die, perhaps with a feeling of not wanting to do whatever it is any longer, and being content with leaving?

 

[patheticparasite]

I'm not jealous of anyone with reasons to live, good for them. But my experience with those reasons has been that they're mostly arbitrary, naive, oversimplified, temporary, fleeting. Eventually it always comes down to: "Yeah, that's not it. How could I have been so stupid?"

Yet here I am, still searching, still trying. I wonder when the cycle of disappointment and self-delusion will end.

 

[tooBadTooLate]

Sometimes, yeah, but sometimes, good for them.

 

[TBONTB]

I have reasons to live. But I also have reasons to die. I hope people don't feel jealous of me!