What will your parents think about your death?

[finalexit]

My parents would be totally crushed, and think I either went to hell or try to convince themselves that I made it to heaven since I was once "saved". Haven't talked to them in a year and a half so would be tragic in that way too

 

[DeadButDreaming]

I have already sought my mother's permission to ctb (she did not grant it), so I know her thoughts on it.

She told me she would never recover and that it would be much more painful to her than the deaths of my dad and stepdad. She lays guilt trips on me in order to prevent it. She says I should at least wait until she has died, but with today's technology she might live another 15 or 20 years. There's no way I'm hanging around that long.

 

[Nexey]

They'll feel "guilty" for 0.2 seconds before finding some way to be dismissive of my motives and reasons.

 

[aneurysm]

that I'm ungrateful

 

[mattymate]

As for anything else : they'll be mad. It's sad how clueless previous generations are about mental health, though next generations will probably think the same of us.

 

[nolongerhuman]

They won't take it well. They know about how badly I've felt for a long time so I think they'll understand a little, but my father and I especially were very close. Every extra day I lived when I felt awful was for his sake, because I know how devastated he would be.

 

[My_name_is_Luka]

I know that my mother would get severely depressed and I'm sorry for that.
It might sound selfish, but there are days when I'm in pain for my health; at those times, complex assignments at work and tight timelines make me wonder why I should keep living, doing so many efforts for a life that probably is not worth living, closed in an apartment most of the time, without any human soul interacting with me.
And I think that in 10 to 20 years, it will be nightmare. I will have to take care of what my parents leave behind, funerals of many relatives, unresolved inheritances, lawyers & co, wasting money and energies in things that should not concern me, while I live in another country and I'm in a health condition such that anything can make me lose my delicate balance.
Somehow I know where this train is going to and it makes me want to jump out before the others do.

 

[brokenwaves]

i haven't spoken to either of those toxic abusers for years thankfully so they can feel how they want to about it. i just know when it happens they will pretend they care so much and are heartbroken - yet they could never be there for me in life. my death will be all about their own feelings lmao

 

[wishicouldgoback]

Can't think about it too much..living on borrowed time