UninformedLover
"Don't mess with The Amazing Spider-Man!"
- Nov 12, 2019
- 321
Everything feels like a chore and nothing is enjoyable anymore and it hasn't been for a long while. I used to like to read comic books but the thought of even looking at a book feels me with anguish. I used to like to sit outside but I hate leaving my house and my ocd and depression makes it difficult to enjoy going outside anymore.
I don't even wanna do unhealthy coping methods either. Usually when I feel so awful and lonely I'll cut myself or get super drunk or masturbate or just watch porn to feel something but I don't want to do any of those things either. I just lay in my bed rotting away while flipping through the same 3 apps. There's just this empty feeling in my chest that doesn't seem to go away. It just gets worse and worse as the days go on. I just wish I was never born bc I'm so freaking cooked
my parents actually just ruined my life so bad istg. I hate them.
I don't even wanna do unhealthy coping methods either. Usually when I feel so awful and lonely I'll cut myself or get super drunk or masturbate or just watch porn to feel something but I don't want to do any of those things either. I just lay in my bed rotting away while flipping through the same 3 apps. There's just this empty feeling in my chest that doesn't seem to go away. It just gets worse and worse as the days go on. I just wish I was never born bc I'm so freaking cooked
my parents actually just ruined my life so bad istg. I hate them.
