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computer

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just wanted to know what u all r thinking cuz im thinking of going out soon and i have no ideas
 
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citrix_s

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just wanted to know what u all r thinking cuz im thinking of going out soon and i have no ideas
I will use lorazepam + antiemetic + SN
 
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kitkat9234

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SN. Although I don't have benzos or meto. Wondering if it will work without them…
 
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I'm thinking of night night but modified to use socks instead. Nothing to buy, no time consuming protocol either.

Tho I don't think I'll CTB yet, could be ages if I even do.
 
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Slark

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Apr 30, 2023
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I'm going to use SN, for ease of access and less mess.
 
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itsgone2

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Fsh and co
 
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citrix_s

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SN. Although I don't have benzos or meto. Wondering if it will work without them…
They are not necessary, my last attempt with SN I didn't use anything else, but they found me and took me to the hospital
 
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hmnow

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full suspension hanging - video streamed to an audience
 
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damn the most i ever did was like 5 mg
hahaha A few days ago I took 5mg because I had a really bad day and just wanted to sleep, and I slept for 15 hours. Depending on the person, more or less will be needed, but I will take the maximum I can get. I can't fail again.
 
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RadioGaga

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Jul 7, 2025
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I'm thinking of night night but modified to use socks instead. Nothing to buy, no time consuming protocol either.

Tho I don't think I'll CTB yet, could be ages if I even do.
How exactly are you going to set it up? Do you have any ropes at home or no? Is it from and made out of materials you can or could find from Home or no??? :/.
 
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Non wire stuff like ropes or shoelaces??? :/.
more like clothing, I think that will be more comfortable... tho I think more research needs to be done (and done safely... don't want the researchers CTBing before they intend to).
 
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RadioGaga

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more like clothing, I think that will be more comfortable... tho I think more research needs to be done (and done safely... don't want the researchers CTBing before they intend to).
What's your opinion on Ligature strangulation?
 
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What's your opinion on Ligature strangulation?
could be a bit painful (imo) if things go south. Due to that, I haven't studied it as thoroughly as some other methods.

Some others say it doesn't hurt, some others say it hurts (maybe they made errors, idk... I didn't study it well)
 
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RadioGaga

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could be a bit painful (imo) if things go south. Due to that, I haven't studied it as thoroughly as some other methods.

Some others say it doesn't hurt, some others say it hurts (maybe they made errors, idk... I didn't study it well)
Finding the carotid arteries are so fucking hard!!! 😭😭😭 like I FEEL THE PULSE but when I press NOTHING HAPPENS just me either feeling HEAVY IN THE HEAD(head exploding feeling of sorts). OR I COUGH!!! 😭😭😭😭
 
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EmptyBottle

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Finding the carotid arteries are so fucking hard!!! 😭😭😭 like I FEEL THE PULSE but when I press NOTHING HAPPENS just me either feeling HEAVY IN THE HEAD(head exploding feeling of sorts). OR I COUGH!!! 😭😭😭😭
ohhh... that is what happens! I have felt the pulse, but never pressed for longer than 1 or 2s. Tks for letting me know.

(PS: Sorry for not replying in 40 mins, there were excess notifications from games threads and I was checking several different forums to try and keep them active)
 
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Finding the carotid arteries are so fucking hard!!! 😭😭😭 like I FEEL THE PULSE but when I press NOTHING HAPPENS just me either feeling HEAVY IN THE HEAD(head exploding feeling of sorts). OR I COUGH!!! 😭😭😭😭
that (exploding head feeling) is from hitting a jugular. try moving the stressor further away from your jugulars. the coughing may be from the string hitting ur windpipe- in that case, make the stressors larger and more focused to a certain point (like a knot).
 
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that (exploding head feeling) is from hitting a jugular. try moving the stressor further away from your jugulars. the coughing may be from the string hitting ur windpipe- in that case, make the stressors larger and more focused to a certain point (like a knot).
thanks :3
 
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heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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just wanted to know what u all r thinking cuz im thinking of going out soon and i have no ideI
i plan on ctb with SN this weekend when my other materials has arrived.
 
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EmptyBottle

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i plan on ctb with SN this weekend when my other materials has arrived.
oh that soon... no idea what questions to ask to get to know u a little, before then 🫂
 
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Vlad Tepes

Experienced
Jun 24, 2025
265
SN, but I dont quite know where to get it. If you know of a source in the EU, hit me up.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,164
I wish I had the option to just peacefully cease existing and never suffer again and I always suffer so much from how that is so cruelly denied for me with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

I always wish I had Nembutal, all I want is to never suffer again with this torturous existence all finally all forgotten about, I always find it painful to be trapped in this existence I always saw as a mistake in the first place.
 
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Irisse

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Sep 8, 2025
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SN + clonazepam + antiemetic. Still haven't purchased SN though, it takes some time and courage for me.
 
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w1ngedpearl

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Apr 17, 2025
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I consider only using SN for CTB. SN is very cheap and easy to get in my country, already bought it. However, meds needed for the protocol are hard to get without a prescription. I'll try to search in my mom's house, she has lots of meds, lol. Or I will go to a doc and fake some illnesses.
I used to think about committing suicide via other methods like jumping from a high building or hanging but now they seem to be impossible and too crazy for me. I'm afraid to fail and become a disabled person, also I don't want to suffer during my death.
 
dead dav

dead dav

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Feb 27, 2025
348
Full suspension hanging I don't want to fail
 
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RadioGaga

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Jul 7, 2025
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that (exploding head feeling) is from hitting a jugular. try moving the stressor further away from your jugulars. the coughing may be from the string hitting ur windpipe- in that case, make the stressors larger and more focused to a certain point (like a knot).
Stressors? And how do I make the "stressors" larger? Idk how to do this!!! 😭😭😭
 

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