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Anon1337

Mage
Oct 1, 2018
552
I'm unable to live a life that is satisfying. My future will be full of hardship and misery. My life will be much worse than it currently is.
 
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whaleandwasp

Member
Apr 18, 2023
18
Chronic pain and sickness, unbearable exhaustion, medication side effects, no family, looming homelessness, financial ruin and destitution, loneliness, horrible sleep problems. I sleep 3 to 4 hours a night if I'm lucky and wake up at least 8 times, due to neurrological problems. Abusive and humiliating living situation. I get hammered down every single day, told I can't do anything right, pushed around, bullied. I have nowhere else to go. Mental health problems, cptsd, horribly abusive childhood including neglect and abandonment. Zero love growing up. No encouragement, zero physical affection. Never married no kids never had a real relationship. 51 years old, car falling apart, running out of money, non dischargeable debt I'll never be able to repay. The only thing that meant anything to me was my career as a teacher but that was stolen by chronic illness. I just want to not exist and hopefully will make that happen soon.

This reads like something I could have wrote. We share many of the same problems with the exception that I lost the love of my life 12/24/2020, came home to find them dead on the living room floor, and I am a little younger than you. Everything else pretty much fits. I also look at the world and see it all as so pointless. We all lose everything and end up dead anyway. I already have the means to do it painlessly, but I'm just not quite ready yet and I don't know why. I nearly did it in the days and weeks following 12/24/2020, and looking back I wish I had. I let myself get too occupied with funeral and family stuff, and waiting on the autopsy report for months during peak-COVID, and enough time passed that I guess I lost the nerve.
 
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VoidedExistence

Student
Dec 6, 2023
103
Because I will never have a job and won't have money to live a life. Currently living off of parents' money.
 
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Raven2

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2022
436
Yes to all that you mentioned. Loneliness, emptiness and emotional pain. I dont really have high hopes that things will improve for me. Too late to turn back the clock now. I'm so tired of going through the motions of life I'm not getting any enjoyment out of it.
 
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Flailure 513282

Member
Apr 15, 2023
13
I'm so tired of being so f*cking useless. I literally cannot do anything right, I know the world would be better without me, and I'm so tired of having nothing to offer. I wish I was strong enough and proactive enough to CBT.
 
hematomatema

hematomatema

my name was lewis
Feb 29, 2024
156
Honestly, it's my future. Right now my life is the best it's ever been but I'm scared because it's likely that I have incurable mental disorders that are simply going to get worse. Couple that with the fact I constantly have huge identity crises and that I have a gut feeling I'll never succeed in the discipline I'm most interested in, and it makes me want to end my life on a high note. I've got loads of friends, happy family members, great grades, but the future is just too uncertain and too varied in terms of 'severity' (if you get what I mean) that I just don't really want to live that long.
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,107
Not being able to express myself, and looking like an idiot wen I do, people don't understand lol. Ah well happens, when you the most complex mental health to exist
 
Arachno

Arachno

oh no :(
Apr 10, 2023
255
Fear of the future, inability to function well in this world, scoliosis, lack of skills and stress
 
sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,024
A lot of things
 
sadslime

sadslime

broken shut-in
Jul 17, 2023
21
Autism. I will never be able to participate in this world, I will never be a person. I don't want to continue living like a useless child unable to leave my house, just rotting day after day.
 
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dragonofenvy

Wizard
Oct 8, 2023
675
Autism. I will never be able to participate in this world, I will never be a person. I don't want to continue living like a useless child unable to leave my house, just rotting day after day.
I'm really similar to you. I also have autism and have spent almost my entire life just rotting away indoors every day, not doing anything. I've been alone for most of it and treated poorly simply because I was born to be a bit different from everyone else. It's truly awful and I'm sorry you also have to share the experience.
 
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Fir3CannotSpeak

BurnMeWithFire
May 8, 2023
12
Just this overwhelming sense of hopelessness. I'm not worth anything, I won't amount to anything so what's the point if I know that I'm uncapable of maintaining a life? I feel like I'm wasting space, like I don't belong here at all.
 
thinvy

thinvy

Woefully Yours, Luka
Aug 7, 2023
213
I'm mentally ill, I have no sense of identity, I've been through boatloads of traumatic experiences, I'm exhausted, my body hurts, I'm not even slightly healthy, I can't trust people... I can go on and say more
 
RosebyAnyName

RosebyAnyName

Staring at the ceiling for 6 hours
Nov 9, 2023
247
Everyone hates me. I just want to be away from everyone so I could live in peace, but I can't afford it.
 
Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
Trauma and its effects thereof
 
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