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namoris

namoris

wa
Oct 24, 2025
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idk i just need a clarification or an explanation to what i am feeling rn

my life is a blast! I have a loving family that always supports me I have a lot of friends and we made a lot of memories together I also have a loving girl beside me but why do I feel so empty? its like I dont deserve to be with them or even be near them. I know I sound like a person that is not greatful to be having this treasures in life but I am very but I dont think I deserve it

I just want to run from life Im tired and I dont know why I want to forget them all I want to die but I cant leave them.

I really dont know why im getting this thoughts even though im blessed with amazing people around me.

can you please explain me why im getting this kind of thoughts? should I get help? Should I talk to my family/friends/girlfriend about this?
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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What do you do all day? Are you involved in activities that feel fulfilling?

You say you feel like you do not deserve the good things. There is probably something deeper going on there. A therapist could aalo be helpful to talk to. They may help tarse out what you seem to be missing from life.
 
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namoris

namoris

wa
Oct 24, 2025
2
inanity of existence
this might be it? im really not sure but thank you
What do you do all day? Are you involved in activities that feel fulfilling?

You say you feel like you do not deserve the good things. There is probably something deeper going on there. A therapist could aalo be helpful to talk to. They may help tarse out what you seem to be missing from life.
i have some hobbies like playing my acoustic guitar, going to uni and studying my butt off while also giving enough time for the people around me i also work part time in a local fast food chain here but i love my job but for the past 2-3 year ive been over my head about this thoughts like i try to just shoo them away but it keeps coming back.

maybe your right i need to talk to a therapist it might find the answer i am looking for thank you for your time
 
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Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
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I don't know what to suggest but in your situation I would probably feel similarly, but not because I don't think I deserve the good things but because I would feel bad for all the people who don't have those things. It would be great if everyone could have as good of a life as you do but unfortunately many, many don't and probably never will. That's something worth being sad about I think. I always feel bad for people who have it worse than me, especially when I know I can't magically fix their problems.
 
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Butterfly-death

Death take my hand, I want to dance with you
Apr 5, 2024
90
Could be a mental issue? Just because you have a good life doesn't mean you can't have bad mental health

Talking to someone would be good for you
 
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delinquentsandwich

delinquentsandwich

Student
Jan 23, 2026
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depression doesn't care about what goes on in your life

a chemical imbalance that requires medical intervention (therapy generally)
 

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