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namoris

namoris

wa
Oct 24, 2025
6
idk i just need a clarification or an explanation to what i am feeling rn

my life is a blast! I have a loving family that always supports me I have a lot of friends and we made a lot of memories together I also have a loving girl beside me but why do I feel so empty? its like I dont deserve to be with them or even be near them. I know I sound like a person that is not greatful to be having this treasures in life but I am very but I dont think I deserve it

I just want to run from life Im tired and I dont know why I want to forget them all I want to die but I cant leave them.

I really dont know why im getting this thoughts even though im blessed with amazing people around me.

can you please explain me why im getting this kind of thoughts? should I get help? Should I talk to my family/friends/girlfriend about this?
 
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Albertvincent

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Jul 13, 2026
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inanity of existence
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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What do you do all day? Are you involved in activities that feel fulfilling?

You say you feel like you do not deserve the good things. There is probably something deeper going on there. A therapist could aalo be helpful to talk to. They may help tarse out what you seem to be missing from life.
 
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namoris

namoris

wa
Oct 24, 2025
6
inanity of existence
this might be it? im really not sure but thank you
What do you do all day? Are you involved in activities that feel fulfilling?

You say you feel like you do not deserve the good things. There is probably something deeper going on there. A therapist could aalo be helpful to talk to. They may help tarse out what you seem to be missing from life.
i have some hobbies like playing my acoustic guitar, going to uni and studying my butt off while also giving enough time for the people around me i also work part time in a local fast food chain here but i love my job but for the past 2-3 year ive been over my head about this thoughts like i try to just shoo them away but it keeps coming back.

maybe your right i need to talk to a therapist it might find the answer i am looking for thank you for your time
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
2,133
I don't know what to suggest but in your situation I would probably feel similarly, but not because I don't think I deserve the good things but because I would feel bad for all the people who don't have those things. It would be great if everyone could have as good of a life as you do but unfortunately many, many don't and probably never will. That's something worth being sad about I think. I always feel bad for people who have it worse than me, especially when I know I can't magically fix their problems.
 
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Butterfly-death

Butterfly-death

Death take my hand, I want to dance with you
Apr 5, 2024
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Could be a mental issue? Just because you have a good life doesn't mean you can't have bad mental health

Talking to someone would be good for you
 
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delinquentsandwich

delinquentsandwich

professional dissociator
Jan 23, 2026
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depression doesn't care about what goes on in your life

a chemical imbalance that requires medical intervention (therapy generally)
 
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kilowatt

kilowatt

scumfuc
Sep 9, 2023
460
Seek out support. You've got plenty of options. Your loved ones might be more open and nice about matters of this kind than you'd initially expect. Talking it out will make you feel better and provide the reassurance you need. If you don't think you deserve all this luck look into acknowledging your self worth, plenty of resources for that online and/or search for a recommended therapist in your area.
 
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burninghill

Arcanist
Dec 2, 2025
428
Definitely open up to somebody about it.

I'm in a similar situation, outwardly perfect life but I just feel empty and stuck. That's kind of what depression does to you. I had high functioning depression for a large part of my life and it's a really confusing feeling, but not one that you're ever alone in.
 
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DignifiedGrave

GrinderofSouls
Jul 5, 2026
105
this might be it? im really not sure but thank you

i have some hobbies like playing my acoustic guitar, going to uni and studying my butt off while also giving enough time for the people around me i also work part time in a local fast food chain here but i love my job but for the past 2-3 year ive been over my head about this thoughts like i try to just shoo them away but it keeps coming back.

maybe your right i need to talk to a therapist it might find the answer i am looking for thank you for your time
You know some unfortunately kind of just are more vulnerable to depression and suicide ideation. You may find it useful to talk to close family members and find out if others also struggle with similar issues. You could have a family history and these things absolutely contribute. That said, you can still absolutely be happy and fulfilled even while being this way. Its not wrong nor unatural though history often tries to erase us and our struggles. I definitely recommend you get therapy especially if you have insurance and until then, I would step back and try to interrogate your feelings of emptiness and not deserving. I will say, you are here and alive, for that alone I personally believe you deserve basic comfort, education, work, and happiness. Just because potential is there for you to be fulfilled and useful means you have value. Whether that value is worth discovering and making use of is up the individual, its your right to dispense or to utilize your value however you see fit. No matter your choice, we support you.
 
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SASU-KE

Lambs not Lambos!
Nov 26, 2025
1,245
Something fundamental is lacking OP. I too have a good life but I don't enjoy it. It's actually probably a very simple issue.

Brains supposed to be getting certain neurotransmitters to make you feel good or satisfied are probably not working as they're supposed to. Again, I'm not a therapist, but that's probably my guess.
 
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revivals

revivals

im afraid to not exist. arent you?
Jul 10, 2026
21
you should talk to a professional about trying antidepressants. therapy could be useful for you, but what youre describing sounds like a chemical imbalance rather than poor mental health developing from life circumstances. best of luck in whatever you choose moving forward!
 
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chiikawalover616

irrepressible thoughts of death barbie
Apr 22, 2026
18
it sounds like it could be a chemical issue. i think you might be depressed, try consulting a therapist or at least a psychiatrist about it? i would recommend antidepressants
 
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isthisit?

The name's Cedrik
Jun 23, 2023
250
I have a really similar situation. For me, the future and performance anxiety have always been the reason.
 
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namoris

wa
Oct 24, 2025
6
Hello! I have read all of the comments of all the people who commented yesterday and im sorry if I havent responded cause I was at my low yesterday and also gave myself some time to think about the things I want to do starting from now

I gave thought of all the comments and I want to say that I didnt knew that there were people who feels the same as me but has different reasons and I respect that. I am sad cause I have thought about people who wants a life like mine where there are people who is there in hands reach I hope you guys get the happiness you deserve and please forgive my selfishness for not properly giving importance to the people who loved me.

I decided to first talk to my girlfriend about this I am not mentally ready but ill give myself about 3 days to ready myself up after that whether her reactions are neither bad or good ill still talk to my parents about this feelings inside me instead of bottling it up, ill also go to therapy as some of you said that maybe professional help will somewhat guide me to the answers im seeking. I am very grateful of people here who answered, shared their opinions and also shared their experiences I am eternally grateful!

I wont waste the treasures that I know people are seeking and I decided after im done answering my questions and fixing myself up I promise to help or talk to people who also has the same feelings as me and spread love to people who needs or wants to be loved.

Thank you again I will come back time to time update how is my life doing! thank you once again and I love you guys from the bottom of my heart
 
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