Venting an empty existence

[100memoryleaks]

i don't want to be alive. nothing brings me joy anymore. I'm sick of being stuck here. I don't want to work tomorrow. I don't want to keep distracting myself. i want to be dead. I have no purpose anymore. i have nothing more to offer this world but my endless misery and insanity and desperation. i hate myself I hate everything I hate being alive. i think this is the only place where there are people who understand me. I know that I'm thinking is unhealthy. i don't care. I don't care about anything anymore. i just want to leave this earth and find out what's on the other side, if anything. i want to go out in bliss. i want to go back and put my head into the rope again, feel my vision fade out but this time not wake up, not breathe, not have a chance to stand up again just continue to hang there until I'm eaten away by bugs. i would prefer this than my current empty existence. i should have died already, just take me out..

 

[Hollowman]

Very relatable.

 

[AgathaChristieLover]

My existence is completely controlled by the people around me, I feel like marionette

 

[100memoryleaks]

i really just want to ctb tonight, but i'm still afraid i'm gonna fail again and have to show up to work looking and feeling like shit. i'm trying to tell myself to not do anything super impulsively but i have the urge to just say fuck it, take more pills and disappear into the woods either hoping i find a better tree or get mauled by a cougar while drunk

 

[smirks00ts]

I feel the same always. im getting my license soon which hopefully will give me more authority. that or ill wait until I can hide somewhere in my uni or in some remote places nearby and take my dad's gun out. i wish it could go by faster. i deserve nothing at all. I hope you find peace.

 

[Ben 111]

This life is full of shit and overated