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What is your wish for 2026?

  • Die

    Votes: 147 69.7%
  • Other

    Votes: 64 30.3%

  • Total voters
    211
DarkJason

DarkJason

Angry subhuman loser
Oct 24, 2025
31
I hope that I will be able to get some ammo for my shotgun so I can blow my brains out like I've been wanting to do for the past several years.
 
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I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,891
Up it miss 25 votes
 
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I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
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emptyshells

emptyshells

Sherlock
Dec 28, 2025
39
Friendship. If I can make one new friend, then there is hope for me still.
My date is a while off from now - I'm giving myself time to finish my art pieces, to try to finish drafting a note, to ensure that I have no loose ends and that I have secured an effective method. I chose my birthday, because I like the mildly ironic sentiment.
But for 2026? I'm aiming for a new friend. Even if that just means someone I get a pint with once in a while, and we sit in silence together. I'll accept that. I'd take anything at this point. I'm so fucking bored, I want to blow out my brains. Anything but this dreadful monotony. I need to be around another human being and try to convince myself that I am still alive at all. Right now I feel like I am already dead, but my body just hasn't caught up yet.
 
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L'amitié. Si je peux me faire un nouvel ami, alors il y a encore de l'espoir pour moi.
Ma date est encore loin – je me donne le temps de terminer mes œuvres, de peaufiner une note, de m'assurer que tout est en ordre et d'avoir trouvé une méthode efficace. J'ai choisi ma date d'anniversaire, car j'aime bien le côté légèrement ironique que cela évoque.
Mais pour 2026 ? Je vise un nouvel ami. Même si ce n'est que quelqu'un avec qui boire une bière de temps en temps et partager un moment de silence. Ça me conviendrait. Je prendrais n'importe quoi, à ce stade. Je m'ennuie tellement que j'ai envie de me tirer une balle. N'importe quoi sauf cette insupportable monotonie. J'ai besoin d'être entouré d'un autre être humain et d'essayer de me convaincre que je suis encore en vie. Là, j'ai l'impression d'être déjà mort, mais mon corps n'a pas encore réalisé.
Great good luck
 
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We are in two days in 2026
 
girafeli

girafeli

it's okay
Dec 23, 2025
39
i want to know what's wrong with me
 
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Unlucky777

Unlucky777

Specialist
Dec 10, 2025
340
I voted for the winning team. Please let it be so.
 
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maylurker

Experienced
Dec 28, 2025
275
i wish everything to work out for me
 
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Up it miss 16 behind 1r january
 
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My wildest dream is die and you...
 
calebzz1

calebzz1

What is it like to see single and clearly?
Jan 6, 2024
181
I have never planned to CTB for a long time honestly and really was just saying it since I have been on here.

I want my vision to improve so I can partake in my old hobbies and go back to work, start community college and continue to learn how to drive.

This is the first route.

I hope by the end of 2026 I can obtain disability benefits and live alone.

That is the second route if my visual impairment does not improve.
 
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Honnêtement, je n'avais jamais prévu de faire CTB depuis longtemps et je le disais simplement parce que je suis inscrit ici.

Je souhaite que ma vue s'améliore afin de pouvoir reprendre mes anciens passe-temps, retourner au travail, commencer des études collégiales et continuer à apprendre à conduire.

Voici le premier itinéraire.

J'espère pouvoir obtenir des prestations d'invalidité et vivre seule d'ici la fin de 2026.

Ce sera la deuxième option si ma déficience visuelle ne s'améliore
I hope things get better for you. You have some great projects. Well done for persevering like this. Good night 💙
 
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Thanks good night and vote
It miss only 13 votes behind 1r january
To have 200
 
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I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
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Up it miss 10 votes
Before 1r january
 
Unsure and Useless

Unsure and Useless

Dreaming Endlessly, not Wanting to Wake Up
Feb 7, 2023
506
It's New Year's Eve (Day) at 3:26 AM, and honestly, I hope to die next year

=Vent Below=
I don't have a traditional date. My deadline is more of a general "get it done by the end of January", so the anxiety is alleviated somewhat. However, I'm still nervous something will go wrong, and I'm still dealing with the guilt of what my loved ones will have to deal with when they find my corpse
 
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Il est 3h26 du matin, la veille du Nouvel An, et honnêtement, j'espère mourir l'année prochaine.

=Ventilation ci-dessous=
Je n'ai pas de date précise. Mon échéance est plutôt un délai vague du genre « finir fin janvier », ce qui atténue un peu mon anxiété. Cependant, je crains toujours que quelque chose tourne mal et je suis toujours rongé par la culpabilité à l'idée de ce que mes proches devront affronter lorsqu'ils découvriront mon corps.
Same for my familly
 
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