Venting I wish i had a gun

[FlankerSandwhich]

I know is so privileged and horrid to say this, but I wish I lived in the us. I wish I had easy access to guns so I could scatter my brains across the wall. I wish I didn't have to resort to stupid methods like hanging or pills that give me too many chances to back out. God fucking damnit I wish I could just blow my brains out

What the fuck is wrong with me? Why am I still here whinging about being alive when I can do it so easily? Can someone stomp on my self preservation so that I hurry up and kill myself please? Fuck me

 

[tonicer]

I know. I live in Germany and getting a gun here is almost impossible. I thought about doing what i see in accident videos form eastern countries where people are getting their heads crushed by trucks or head cut off by trains or fall from a great height or electrocution. I'm too much of a pussy to endure any kind of pain.

 

[FlankerSandwhich]

I know. I live in Germany and getting a gun here is almost impossible. I thought about doing what i see in accident videos form eastern countries where people are getting their heads crushed by trucks or head cut off by trains or fall from a great height or electrocution. I'm too much of a pussy to endure any kind of pain.

Me too. I've thought about pills, but I don't even know how to start, and I'm not in the position to get them right now. I wish there was an easy way to do it, and a way that allowed me to act impulsively without me stupid self preservation taking over