Venting i wanna ctb so bad

[favouriteworstolive]

i'm so annoyed. i don't have like any means to ctb but i really want to. i really fucking wanna. ts sucks man. legit only thing that's keeping me somewhat afloat is my best friend and the razors i ordered that are arriving next week. i wish i could just have a switch i can press and just. shut my body off. i wanna kill myself so bad i wish i had access to stuff that could get me to it. i'm js so frustrated.

 

[Lost_Dawns]

i do not know why i am waiting and yet I am still waiting.

I do not even have plans to get a good method yet.