idreamalone
Member
- Jul 15, 2026
- 5
So this is sort of an update on my last 2 posts, but I wake up every single day around 5 PM because I don't wanna be awake for so long because I seriously don't wanna do anything anymore.
I don't like gaming anymore. I barely enjoy the stuff I watch anymore, and the girl I was talking to out of nowhere almost never texts me anymore. Maybe every 2 days if I'm lucky. And I've tried talking to her about it but nothing ever comes out of those conversations.
Also, I wanna mention how my past 2 relationships weren't IRL ones because I am too afraid to walk up to girls because I'm not good with that kind of stuff and I'm just really insecure because I don't find myself being like good looking at all.
And then I have people around me telling me to find a girlfriend as if it's so fucking easy. Then I always have to explain how it's most likely never gonna happen and that they shouldn't get their hopes up.
Now I just sit on the couch all day without motivation and depressed, thinking if I should ctb because the depression is only getting worse as the days go by and I have no energy for anything anymore.
And all the jobs I applied to haven't called back, even though they said they'd do it the same day. I have a big fucking debt because of my addiction to nicotine.
I only have 1 good friend, and I'm going back to school Monday, and I won't know ANYONE. So I'm basically stressed out all day now, and probably the whole upcoming weekend, I'll be stressing about this too.
Everything is getting worse every day too, and I'm just done. The only thing I really enjoy nowadays is smoking and sleeping.
I don't like gaming anymore. I barely enjoy the stuff I watch anymore, and the girl I was talking to out of nowhere almost never texts me anymore. Maybe every 2 days if I'm lucky. And I've tried talking to her about it but nothing ever comes out of those conversations.
Also, I wanna mention how my past 2 relationships weren't IRL ones because I am too afraid to walk up to girls because I'm not good with that kind of stuff and I'm just really insecure because I don't find myself being like good looking at all.
And then I have people around me telling me to find a girlfriend as if it's so fucking easy. Then I always have to explain how it's most likely never gonna happen and that they shouldn't get their hopes up.
Now I just sit on the couch all day without motivation and depressed, thinking if I should ctb because the depression is only getting worse as the days go by and I have no energy for anything anymore.
And all the jobs I applied to haven't called back, even though they said they'd do it the same day. I have a big fucking debt because of my addiction to nicotine.
I only have 1 good friend, and I'm going back to school Monday, and I won't know ANYONE. So I'm basically stressed out all day now, and probably the whole upcoming weekend, I'll be stressing about this too.
Everything is getting worse every day too, and I'm just done. The only thing I really enjoy nowadays is smoking and sleeping.
