Discussion What is Your #1 Reason for Not Wanting to Live?

[AceVendetta7500]

Fiancé left me in early April. Don't really see a point in living anymore. She is all I think about. Nothing brings me any joy since she left. Everyday has felt like a waking nightmare since the day she left. Funny thing is I was perfectly ok being alone before we started dating.

 

[Lo$t95]

Not everyone was made for this world.

I feel this man. I worked my whole life my adoptive parents were never happy with anything I did. Constantly putting me down growing up completely fucked my ability to open up / relax with or trust anyone. Never had a relationship I avoided other people and pushed them away couldn't help it just an automatic response I could never stop. Suicide is just so welcoming and feels right at this point. Some lives are not worth living it just is what it is.

 

[BlockHammer]

Aren't you scared of what will happen when your parents aren't around to financially support you? I'm in the same boat as you and that's my biggest fear.

Well, im more scared of being a burden toward my parents, that's why i rather chose CTB

 

[Cress]

Extensive nerve damage and pain.

 

[Beelzebub]

Putting weight back on after recovery, and the effects that has had on my life from losing my best friend to losing my ability to focus on anything at work.

 

[cranberrys]

For me it's the fact that I can't do anything to improve my working and living conditions. I've been working my ass off trying to make something of myself so I can be happy, but it's all for nothing. I'm wasting years and money to go to college, to graduate, to get as many opportunities as I can. I'll always be stuck in my current job, getting barely any hours, not being paid a livable wage. The only ways to fix my situation are either not gonna happen, or gonna take too long to the point my opportunities to do what I want with my life will be gone. I can't travel, I can't vote, I can't get a better job, and I'm tired of it. This is a shitty life, and I lose more and more motivation every day that passes.

 

[rocketman99]

chronic physical and mental illness

 

[HopingOnaMiracle]

This crippling depression that has taken all from me. If death is the only way to make it disappear... So be It goddamnit

 

[overthehill]

For me it's the fact that I'm socially isolated at age 35 and far past the point of things ever getting better. I'm so afraid of the future that I want to avoid it.

 

[yong01]

Quelques problèmes de santé et craintes pour mon avenir personnel

 

[revontulet]

30+, long time depression and living is just too stressful with all the problems. Factor of many things. Healthcare hasn't helped or changed anything.

 

[huzzahhue56]

Don't understand why life exists. Don't understand people. Don't understand why people like life. I don't like being alive. That's the whole reason. I don't like it here.

so thats it? I've read your whole history and you never listed a concrete reason for wanting to die. I can't find a single thing.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

TR depression

Same

 

[AflacDuck]

I'm too emotionally unstable to hold down a job, but functional enough I can't get welfare. I'm almost 30, I plan to CTB the day before my birthday.

The truth is between these two I will not be able to make enough money to survive, and I promised myself I would rather die than live a shit life. I stand by it even now, the only thing keeping me here is that I promised I would "try everything" until there were no options left. I have until late november.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

"There is a kind of sadness that comes from knowing too much, from seeing the world as it truly is. It is the sadness of understanding that life is not a grand adventure, but a series of small, insignificant moments, that love is not a fairy tale, but a fragile, fleeting emotion, that happiness is not a permanent state, but a rare, fleeting glimpse of something we can never hold onto. And in that understanding, there is a profound loneliness, a sense of being cut off from the world, from other people, from oneself."

Virginia Woolf

 

[voc_89]

only because I reached a place where I can totally be a normie. Example

Me: Oh hey neighbour the houses we just bought are doubling in value
or
Me: Oh hey unsuspecting woman (who doesn't know how f'd up I am) how do u like my new BMW from the dealership

yh u mightn't believe me but I can do either or (not both) next year

 

[Gangrel]

Depression is exhausting, i'm tired of pretending everything is nice, tired of waking up early to slave myself in a job, tired of people and getting old, tired of pain, tired of fucking effort.

 

[iloveloving]

Loneliness.

 

[Final_Choice]

It's the most realistic and attainable way to find peace. Both due to all the faults in society, myself as a person, and my medical conditions I may never realistically be at peace in my mind, even though that's really the only thing I care about.

 

[offbalance]

I know it's never just ONE reason, but it can definitely FEEL like it.

What is your #1 reason that pushes you over the top for not wanting to live anymore?

Thank you for sharing.

I just don't have what it takes to be happy in this life. I don't feel capable of being strong and ignoring all the bad in this world.