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Cubashii

Cubashii

One second in Valhalla Is all I really would want.
Oct 22, 2018
144
Bad things I've done, and people I've hurt and how much a burden I am.

I feel like a burden at my house being a full time student. I try not to look back on the things i have done in the past because they are already over with. It shapes who you want to be today.
 
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Cubashii

Cubashii

One second in Valhalla Is all I really would want.
Oct 22, 2018
144
Today I literally felt empty. Those are the worst days.

They are. Some days even music I know will lighten my mood makes me feel more dark.
 
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Jane Doe

Jane Doe

Student
Aug 19, 2018
148
Over it lol its that an emotion
 
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Jai

Jai

Specialist
Sep 23, 2018
384
My strongest emotion today would be loneliness. I feel I don't have enough contact with people such as, hugs or long convoersations. Anybody else experiencing a strong emotion they want to talk about?
Anger to hope to irritation to frustration to hopelessness to comfort the carnival in my head never stops
 
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lost illusions

lost illusions

bye
Sep 12, 2018
548
Loss and complete worthlessness.
 
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HelpPlease

Psych ward
Sep 9, 2018
188
Freaking out!!!!! Brain damage and suffering!!!!! Suffering. Every day
 
ShadowOfTheDay

ShadowOfTheDay

Hungry Ghost
Feb 14, 2019
331
Self-loathing, as usual.
 
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Help_Me

Help_Me

Gene pool mistake
Oct 21, 2018
516
Hatred... this is the strongest human feeling possible. Love is nothing compared to this !
 
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spanishguy22

Enlightened
Apr 9, 2019
1,003
huge frustration at stopping myself from attempting suicide every day
 
DetachedDreamer97

DetachedDreamer97

Enlightened
Mar 17, 2018
1,402
Worry. I developed a hernia and I can't stop thinking about it getting worse to the point it becomes strangulated and I throw up. I am terrified of vomiting mainly for the fact it can ruin my teeth.
 
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Allpainnogain

Experienced
May 2, 2019
203
Shame and regret
Anxiety
 
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freetobe

freetobe

Member
May 17, 2019
5
Shame and loneliness. Been planning on CTB, but was pulled back today and trying to sort my sh*t out.
 
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SunakaMorii

SunakaMorii

New Member
Apr 17, 2019
1
anger, anxiety, regret and probably loneliness..
 
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deathenvoy

Experienced
Mar 29, 2019
215
Fear, sadness and despair
 
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Lotharius

Member
Mar 20, 2018
37
Anger for me as well, almost wrecked my bike passing a slow car in rush hour earlier. Could have waited 30 seconds but noooo, I have to be fed up instead of calm.
 
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deathenvoy

Experienced
Mar 29, 2019
215
Pain as I released I am an emotional wreck.
 
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TristanReveur

TristanReveur

Member
May 20, 2019
15
Despair, today and yesterday, and many days befor yesterday.
 
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HelpPlease

Psych ward
Sep 9, 2018
188
Pain and suffering
I have brain damage
 
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BACONF

BACONF

I have become a husk of myself.
Nov 13, 2018
39
Anger.
Anger at myself for beign a piece of crap.
 
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HelpPlease

Psych ward
Sep 9, 2018
188
I fucked up worse than anyone else in the history of people I fucked up baaaaaaddd
 

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