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thinvy

thinvy

Woefully Yours, Luka
Aug 7, 2023
240
I miss my dad. I miss life before I knew my body and brain are broken and there's nothing we can do. I miss when I had dreams and zeal for life. I miss my friend Dez. I miss my friend Moonlight, who I still can talk to and everything, I just have been slowly drifting away so that they hopefully never find out I killed myself and eventually forget me. I miss running and playing freely. I miss being held, or laying with and cuddling people I trust and care for. I miss community. I miss when I could actually eat.

I really fucking miss when restaurants were cheap and good, though. I miss you, early 00s taco bell. I miss the stupid cici's mac and cheese pizza people either thought was disgusting or the best thing there. I miss being able to go to waffle house. It's not terribly terribly expensive, I just don't live near one.
 
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maki

maki

Member
Apr 18, 2026
33
i miss my ex and my friend group from high school. i wish i had been better towards them
 
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outrider567

Illuminated
Apr 5, 2022
3,002
Her---Her death ruined me
 
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gardenhouse

Specialist
Mar 26, 2026
341
I miss silence 😵‍💫
 
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nowhere123

nowhere123

Member
May 8, 2026
21
I miss when I used to have hope. I miss when I used to have some zest for life, even if it wasn't much. I remember a time when I used to have something - I used to be okay with waking up every day, I used to look forward to things. I felt alive. That was years ago now.
me too, I used to have hope, to feel happy. I can't believe that just one year ago I still have them.
 
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Bishop

Bishop

This is the way
Mar 24, 2024
328
I miss my grandmother. I also miss childhood, the innocence and the lack of burdens.
 
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chaoschuckler

chaoschuckler

CTB on 11th May Hopefully 🖤
Feb 4, 2026
127
I miss my pre-COVID self the version of me that wasn't overly self-aware. I used to go with the flow and not worry so much about my image or what other people thought of me.
 
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tomame

tomame

forlorn 💔
Dec 28, 2025
202
my boyfriend.
 
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delinquentsandwich

delinquentsandwich

Member
Jan 23, 2026
58
mostly my friends who I used to be close with
we're distant now and I am to blame
I cannot stop thinking about what was.. what could have been
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

KuriGohan&Kamehameha

想死不能 - 想活不能
Nov 23, 2020
1,883
I miss being able to go outside and not be in awful pain within a few minutes, I can't even remember what my life was like before this pain anymore. I miss being able to lay in bed without feeling sciatica pain. I miss being able to eat food and not worry if it will make me feel sick. I miss feeling smart and being able to read long novels. Most of all, I miss being able to wake up and not feel completely unrefreshed and exhausted. I want a healthy body again.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,245
I miss my mother and my uncle. They were the two pillars that kept me going for so long. I hope to join them soon. I've given life too many chances already. I hate myself for that.
 
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HarleyQuinn

HarleyQuinn

heartbroken
Feb 28, 2026
48
i miss the love of my life.
 
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