Venting I watch my sister ctb

[franklyditto]

In my second year of my uni I went back home in summer break,tbh i don't want to go back because everytime im going back to it gonna have bad things happening last time the family have argued so hard im tired to escape from my home so i have some expectations in mind that this is gonna be a shitty summer break and im not wrong at all not even two week after I arrive my sister try to ctb by overdose her med(she is depressed). it was her friend who she let them be in her room to tell me and my mom that she is trying to ctb, my mom call the hospital and she get into er room. Everytime doctor trying to restrain her she let out a big shout like "why can't you let's me die" "I hate you guys" (At the doctors) it feel terrible to watch. After that day i feel a little bit angry at her not because she is doing ctb but because she is not asking me to do it together. I mean why can't you tell me too so we can be peaceful together. But i understand her too maybe she is not want mom to be alone.