I’vehadenough

I’vehadenough

Elementalist
Sep 15, 2018
847
Like probably everyone here waiting in line it's to end the pain and suffering.

Beyond that though it's to be free from the regrets And pain of my life, no longer pinned down by the weight off my mistakes in a world that to often doesn't give second chances. To ease my conscience, knowing I won't hurt those I love again, other than in this brief instant. To give the middle finger to a life that has built me up, just to tear me down time and time again. To no longer have to struggle. For me, I could by a normal persons standard's potentially fix my life and continue. It would be but a pale shadow of what once was though, and ever haunted by what came before it. It is out a chance though, just got that imitation of a life, a chance that requires hard work. That is the route of my desire, I'm tired of working at life, I'm tired of life.

Will it fix everything? I can only hope so, unless there is some afterlife where I'll be tortured for all eternity (doesn't sound that different), I can't see why it wouldn't fix my problem given that life its self is the problem. They are right though, this is luckily just a temporary problem, and once I will solve.
I can relate to you when you say if you build your life up now it would just be a shadow of what your life was. I've tried this and the psychological torture is unbearable
 
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Nothingfromsomething

Member
Dec 1, 2019
15
I can relate to you when you say if you build your life up now it would just be a shadow of what your life was. I've tried this and the psychological torture is unbearable


That's exactly why I want out now. There is an exceedingly small chance I'll get back what I lost. A small chance that I'll get that shadow, and a large chance it'll sputter anf fail because I'm simply too damaged now...
 
I’vehadenough

I’vehadenough

Elementalist
Sep 15, 2018
847
That's exactly why I want out now. There is an exceedingly small chance I'll get back what I lost. A small chance that I'll get that shadow, and a large chance it'll sputter anf fail because I'm simply too damaged now...
Yeah, I tried for a year. Got nothing back. Just more misery
 
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c824767

Specialist
Sep 2, 2019
358
They can't, because the dumb people ruined their lives
Precisely or those with niche skills like I just had a call from my bank: an associate 300 km away, probably in a branch I used last year, managed to detach my new consultant's name from my account and put their name on it. I feel like I am raped by the bank.
 
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Nothingfromsomething

Member
Dec 1, 2019
15
Yeah, I tried for a year. Got nothing back. Just more misery

I'm really sorry to hear that. I got you find the peace you deserve.

I'll be here for a while myself, hard to ctb in my situation, so if there is a chance it'll get better I'll have that chance, but I have no hopes any more.
 
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Knowledgeseeker

Member
Jan 14, 2020
20
I'm struggling with this question a lot. For me it's to relieve suffering from depression and to free myself from this cruel dark world. Every second is a nightmare for me so it's my best solution.

Does the eternal peace you get from CTB solve all your problems?

I'm new here and should like to know what CTB is an acronym for? I get from where you are coming, and with the world in such decline with the global elitists wanting to turn us into slaves or kill us anyway, I'd like to avoid all that mayhem that eventually will happen. But I just can't until I know for sure. My life is screwed up that the moment hugely, and don't know if I'll find a way through it, but I have some hope. I keep thinking that if I do have to go through with it or starve to death otherwise, at least I can plan to enjoy what I have left and not have to listen to a corporate arse hole tell me I'm not working hard or fast enough.
 
voyager

voyager

Don't you dare go hollow...
Nov 25, 2019
965
I'm new here and should like to know what CTB is an acronym for? I get from where you are coming, and with the world in such decline with the global elitists wanting to turn us into slaves or kill us anyway, I'd like to avoid all that mayhem that eventually will happen. But I just can't until I know for sure. My life is screwed up that the moment hugely, and don't know if I'll find a way through it, but I have some hope. I keep thinking that if I do have to go through with it or starve to death otherwise, at least I can plan to enjoy what I have left and not have to listen to a corporate arse hole tell me I'm not working hard or fast enough.

It means catching the bus, although some say cease to breathe, basically kill oneself. Welcome to the forum!
 
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TotallyIsolated

Mage
Nov 25, 2019
590
I'm new here and should like to know what CTB is an acronym for? I get from where you are coming, and with the world in such decline with the global elitists wanting to turn us into slaves or kill us anyway, I'd like to avoid all that mayhem that eventually will happen. But I just can't until I know for sure. My life is screwed up that the moment hugely, and don't know if I'll find a way through it, but I have some hope. I keep thinking that if I do have to go through with it or starve to death otherwise, at least I can plan to enjoy what I have left and not have to listen to a corporate arse hole tell me I'm not working hard or fast enough.
Catch the Bus, i.e. to kill one's self
 
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TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,819
My main goal is to finally be truly free from all suffering and existence, similar to a state of never being born, conceived to begin with. Then my secondary goals are to spread the fact that rational and carefully thought out suicides do exist and maybe it would change how people look at suicide (the latter though being unlikely as they are too deluded (most of society) to acknowledge it and would rather write it off as mental illness).
 
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Maus7

Member
Jan 7, 2020
26
I've never heard anyone complain about being dead
Peace/hugs
i have thought and reflected on this very thing the past several months. with that said i also have no access to what
is being said in the after world either
 
AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
To end it all and no longer feel the pain of living life.
 
Innereye

Innereye

Know thy self
Jan 18, 2020
300
Would rather not do it, but I can only deal with so much.
 
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