What do you hope to accomplish through CTB?

[CalmStrikeofMercy]

I am dealing with irreversible psychological damage that I have tried just about every ethnic groups approach to as well as scientific approaches to end and the only one that seems like it will work is an old fashion model of consensual death.
Tired of having to argue my way through the abrahamic religions & folk religions to do this.

Just want to be taken out back and put out like ol' yeller.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

The silence and peace.

And to also show my parents how much hurt they cause me. Sick of being gaslighted. Their feelings always matter, mine never.

And sick of begging for scraps. I won't hunger anymore on death.

 

[xxlily]

@xxlily , this is OT, but I gotta say, yours is likely the most provocative display pic I have seen on this website! Interesting choice of the photo. Why not... we are pro-choice. :-)

Death and sexuality, my raison d'etre:D
Got a fitting death themed tattoo somewhere too lol

 

[mediocre]

I hope I'll be at peace. No more noise, no more pain, no more worry.

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

Ending suffering and misery caused by repeated abuse from everyone I've evere known.
I want to forget traumatic memories forever.

 

[R_N]

Like most here, to end my suffering.

 

[MG_39]

I have no other option. I can't keep living with my health problems, they are to painful, and just gets worse.

 

[Soul]

Does everyone planning on ctb believe in some form of afterlife I assume or does anyone think that's the end but still want that?

Many of us here are sure the end is the end and look forward to it. Others have ideas/beliefs about the afterlife; there's a sticky thread about it in the "off topic" section. I firmly believe I don't know who's correct, and finding out is one thing I hope to accomplish by dying.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

It solves nothing. It opens no doors. It only closes them. Forever. Does something good come from an act of violence? I don't know.

 

[ReadyToMeetMyMaker]

Peace.

 

[Moonicide]

To simply be at peace. No more having to take pills everyday to function, no more chronic pain, mental illness, etc. Just peace.
I was never meant for this world. I'm too soft, too tender, and sheltered.

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

Does everyone planning on ctb believe in some form of afterlife I assume or does anyone think that's the end but still want that?

I think at the very least our energy gets recycled back into an eternal universe , because of that I believe we continue on and at some point in eternity the energy that created our current life could eventually use that same energy to create another life...

Ideally it would be nice to exist in spirit form with conciousness but with no restrictions of physical and emotional problems, free to move about the universe in am eternal joyful bliss...

But what do I believe??? I dont know. I guess that's what makes all of this so hard to go through with despite the pain.

 

[Skyview]

Sate my curiosity , is there anybody/anything out there ? Maybe I should change my username to " Cat"

 

[BipolarExpat]

as pro-lifers put it, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

but it is also a permanent solution to every single problem that i'll ever face, a solution to my pain, to a life of trauma and a solution to feeling so bad about this life that i literally want to go against everything in nature and end it myself.

to put it simply, i don't want to keep suffering, i think i lived through enough pain and i know that things will inevitably get worse, i wanted to live a good life but that's just impossible for me so there is only one answer and that's catching the bus.

Pro lifers are clueless. A permanent solution to a temporary problem. I am a 9/11 First Responder. What I saw isn't temporary. The illnesses I have because of it aren't temporary. Losing someone who CTB 3 days ago. Pro Lifers. His death is not temporary.

Pro lifers. Feel free to message me. I would love to talk to you about my temporary problems.

I liked your statement. I don't want to keep suffering.

Wanted you to see the 1st Youtube comment under the (largely pro-life) docu: "Skyway Down" regarding jumpers from the Sunshine Skyway bridge in Florida.


The "stupid subtitle" refers to the filmmakers use of the tired phrase in question on the title page of the production.

Disclaimer: if you're particularly prone to rising anxiety when considering the impact you may cause to loved ones, consider NOT watching this short film. I wish I wouldn't have...

 

[Skyview]

Because I cant cope and I'll be broke and homeless soon.

Also, if I'm really honest, because I want my mum to suffer. Its the *only* way I'll ever be able to show her how much she has hurt me.

Broke and homeless! I can understand why you wish to ctb , others do for the same reason but please , if you must go then don't be vengeful towards your mother , go with a clear conscience and travel peacefuly , this is your journey and I hope you find whatever it is you seek

 

[Jean4]

Wanted you to see the 1st Youtube comment under the (largely pro-life) docu: "Skyway Down" regarding jumpers from the Sunshine Skyway bridge in Florida.

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The "stupid subtitle" refers to the filmmakers use of the tired phrase in question on the title page of the production.

Disclaimer: if you're particularly prone to rising anxiety when considering the impact you may cause to loved ones, consider NOT watching this short film. I wish I wouldn't have...

Thank you for that disclaimer. If people want to know how a person killing themselves affects a loved one, they can ask me. I am on day 4 since mine CTB. I can give a different perspective.

 

[I’vehadenough]

I don't want this life anymore. Death ends your life. Simple

 

[Sad_Autistic_boy_101]

Peace
To be reunited with my friend
For the pain to end
To stop waking up everyday in this nightmare

 

[advisableislay]

I just want to stop hurting everyone.

 

[voyager]

I'm sorry for those still in pain and know to what lengths one will go to end it.

As for me, I just want to move on to another plane. I'm done with this chapter and long for something else. Maybe a purpose or untainted version of myself. Perhaps there is nothing, and if so that's fine. But maybe there is more. We can't really explain our existence or the universe, so who's to say what awaits us.

 

[dioxide]

I have asperger grade of autism, live every day with anxiety, fear and depression. Have spinal injuries and i will arrange my ctb between next few years, when my researches are complete.

I do not believe death is the end, i consider it a reset and strongly believe in the metascientific theory of 28grams.

The soul have a mass and this mass will go to a new life, so everything will restart and maybe next time, things will be better.

 

[BlueWidow]

I've never heard anyone complain about being dead
Peace/hugs

Excellent point!

 

[sueoffside]

to bring an end to the emotional turmoil that has plagued my life since childhood. I don't know if I necessarily believe in an afterlife but I am content with nothingness if that brings an end to my pain

 

[TowerUpright]

For me, a shortcut to dealing with my poor decisions I am reminded of everyday.

 

[TotallyIsolated]

Broke and homeless! I can understand why you wish to ctb , others do for the same reason but please , if you must go then don't be vengeful towards your mother , go with a clear conscience and travel peacefuly , this is your journey and I hope you find whatever it is you seek

My mother doesn't love me. It's not her fault - she just wasn't able to give me what I needed as a child. I can deal with it, but I wont deny it any longer. I have the right to feel angry.

 

[BlueWidow]

I hope to finally be free of all of my physical and psychological burdens
To escape the daily hassles involved with being alive
Possibly to meet up with deceased loved ones, but if I end up in eternal nothingness, i'm fine with that too.
As long as I no longer have to deal with doctors and others who claim to have the answers to my problems when all they do is offer the same old tired treatments and suggestions that I've already tried multiple times.
Lastly, I don't like the direction the world is going in. I discussed this with someone in another thread, but I feel for millennials and young people. The world they are inheriting is so screwed up in so many ways. It appears to be getting worse and worse just as I am getting older and sicker. I don't want to be at the mercy of this world and be too sick to do anything about it.

 

[c824767]

I want to show the world that intelligent beings cannot live on this planet.

 

[TowerUpright]

I hope to finally be free of all of my physical and psychological burdens
To escape the daily hassles involved with being alive
Possibly to meet up with deceased loved ones, but if I end up in eternal nothingness, i'm fine with that too.
As long as I no longer have to deal with doctors and others who claim to have the answers to my problems when all they do is offer the same old tired treatments and suggestions that I've already tried multiple times.
Lastly, I don't like the direction the world is going in. I discussed this with someone in another thread, but I feel for millennials and young people. The world they are inheriting is so screwed up in so many ways. It appears to be getting worse and worse just as I am getting older and sicker. I don't want to be at the mercy of this world and be too sick to do anything about it.

God, I agree with every point your post.

Well said.

 

[I’vehadenough]

I want to show the world that intelligent beings cannot live on this planet.

They can't, because the dumb people ruined their lives

 

[Nothingfromsomething]

Like probably everyone here waiting in line it's to end the pain and suffering.

Beyond that though it's to be free from the regrets And pain of my life, no longer pinned down by the weight off my mistakes in a world that to often doesn't give second chances. To ease my conscience, knowing I won't hurt those I love again, other than in this brief instant. To give the middle finger to a life that has built me up, just to tear me down time and time again. To no longer have to struggle. For me, I could by a normal persons standard's potentially fix my life and continue. It would be but a pale shadow of what once was though, and ever haunted by what came before it. It is out a chance though, just got that imitation of a life, a chance that requires hard work. That is the route of my desire, I'm tired of working at life, I'm tired of life.

Will it fix everything? I can only hope so, unless there is some afterlife where I'll be tortured for all eternity (doesn't sound that different), I can't see why it wouldn't fix my problem given that life its self is the problem. They are right though, this is luckily just a temporary problem, and once I will solve.