It was right in front of me...

[@araxy]

So I found a source to aid me in having an escape when things decide to get worse. Unfortunately, the domain is now down and I am back at step 1. It was just a day later. I knew I should have locked in when I found it. I know there are other methods but I was hoping to have this way on standby. Guess I wait and keep searching AGAIN! I was so relieved to have found it too but dumbass me didn't act immediately. Fuck

Why do people have to make this difficult? And these fuckers are only making me and many others suffer even more. Seriously, what the hell does this accomplish? I just wanted something at my side as I watch the world continue to fail to improve and I have the free will to make the choice when I have had enough and can go peacefully. Im terrified of the other methods and their risks if I were to fail. Why am I such a coward?

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand as all I want is to peacefully cease existing and I always suffer so much from how we exist in this horrific anti-suicide world where the option to die painlessly is denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it's all so dreadful, all I want is peace from this torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[finalgoodbye:(]

I'm sorry, it's fucked up that SN and other options are getting really hard to get. We just want a peaceful exit