Venting Pillphobia

[lostinthecha0s]

Struggling with depression and adhd with pillphobia sucks. Every appointment with my psychiatrist he wants to add a new pill. I'm on 3 right now, adding a 4th and it makes me sick. I can't even watch actors take pills on tv without wanting to puke. Every evening I feel so sick just thinking about having to take my meds. It's so stupid my brain requires so much external help to keep it going in the world, and if I don't take them, I'll rot away to nothing or plan my CTB. It's gods sick joke on his imperfect humans.

It's so hard being broken, nothing feels like it'll put the pieces together.

 

[Fadenself00_]

Are they all helping? 4 drugs at the same time sounds like possibly being overprescribed stuff.. Can you get a second opinion? And do you actually notice them helping you and making things better?
(Not to be insensitive, but judging by you very recently having signed up for this site, I would have my doubts)