OCD, especially OCD with themes/intrusive thoughts of harm, abuse, etc. I struggle with P*dophilia themed OCD, and what that means is that I am afraid of becoming a p*do. it does not make me a p*do for having this kind of OCD, in fact the fear came around when I started recovering from childhood online grooming and online sexual assault. I am afraid of becoming the people who had hurt me as a child and I would never EVER wish for a child to be hurt like that, or ever want to hurt a child like that. I wish people understood that OCD is capable of coming with violent sexual and abusive intrusive thoughts, and it's actually so fucking common for OCD and jntrusive thought havers to atleast have a few bad ones. An intrusive thought is just a misfiring of the brain, and do not actually reflect on one's character as a person. and I wish people understood that and I wish people would stop jumping to conclusions when I talk about having POCD in "safe spaces" for OCD havers. (safe spaces in quotes because they dont feel safe to me. I feel disgusting and invalid and I feel like I shoukd die for having POCD)