Discussion What could change in your life that could stop you from CTB?

[Fly Fly Away]

Hi all

It's a generic question that a friend here asked me moments ago.

I loved that question as it made me think something I had not thought about before.

I wish to ask that question to you all

What is that one thing that could happen in your life today that could change your mind and let you live a happy life?

Think about it and answer.

I also know that people suffering from pain, chronic/terminal illness or severe mental illness have a specific reason to think of ctb. So, it's very obvious that if their illness or pain gets healed, they'd like to change their mind.

How about the others?

I'd say money, but money might also allow me to use better CTB methods.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I'd say money, but money might also allow me to use better CTB methods.

Same with me,
As such i currently have the necessary money i need to buy everything i need for ctb. But i don't have a source secondly, even if i order, my family will seize it as i live with them i wonder what to do

 

[MatiSendiri]

I'd say money, but money might also allow me to use better CTB methods.

Same lol, wish I have more money to at least survive.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Same lol, wish I have more money to at least survive.

You can look for side gigs. A lot of kids are earning lot of money as much as 1000s of $ using ai, internet and their phone.

 

[memento-mori]

waking up from this nightmare.
I wish my life was a bad dream I'd wake up from one day

 

[Mr.Ruben]

if my parents could live comfortably, and not have jobs that hurt their bodies. seeing friends succeed also helps the psyche.
the motivation I have to succeed is simply to help others, but ive noticed the mistakes and ways im being lazy, will not bring a positive income for my parents.
I have yet to find someone to love as a partner, but that really is on the side for me.

If I had to think more about myself and my mind, having much less psoriasis would help, and perhaps a more strict usage of Artificial Intelligence as we try with phones, people are genuinely becoming numb to any visual information.

 

[ctb_warrior]

waking up from this nightmare.
I wish my life was a bad dream I'd wake up from one day

I wish your life can improve soon so you get to live your dream life check out my threads if anything in them can be helpful.

if my parents could live comfortably, and not have jobs that hurt their bodies. seeing friends succeed also helps the psyche.
the motivation I have to succeed is simply to help others, but ive noticed the mistakes and ways im being lazy, will not bring a positive income for my parents.
I have yet to find someone to love as a partner, but that really is on the side for me.

If I had to think more about myself and my mind, having much less psoriasis would help, and perhaps a more strict usage of Artificial Intelligence as we try with phones, people are genuinely becoming numb to any visual information.

You are a really kind soul that you choose to live for others and getting your loved ones the respite is going to help you
You can go through my threads, you may find a couple of things that can help you with your current situation.

AI unfortunately is here to stay, and it'll numb our minds exactly as you've said. It's best to make it your friend early so you can reap the rewards it can bring you.
A lot of kids are earning 1000s of $ monthly by using ai, internet and their phones.

 

[Zzzkurt]

I restarted this so many times because I'm so back and forth on how to answer this. There's just so many different ways to answer it. I just wish I didn't have to have money to live a life I don't really want to live in the first place. I want to be able to actually spend my time on earth doing something with meaning rather then slaving away just to get free time during the years your body begins to shut down. They basically just prime you so you can accumulate all this money and then they slowly milk you until you die and even after you die.

But then sometimes I look at people who love their jobs and they hey have a genuinely happy life. Not an illusion or a mask — genuine happiness no matter what's going on. That seems like something worth living for. But then I feel bad for those types of people because it's like ignorance is bliss. They're unaware of the reality because they can afford all these distractions whether intentionally or not.

But see now I feel like I'm going all over the place so I'll end it here lol. Long story short… idk what it'll take.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I restarted this so many times because I'm so back and forth on how to answer this. There's just so many different ways to answer it. I just wish I didn't have to have money to live a life I don't really want to live in the first place. I want to be able to actually spend my time on earth doing something with meaning rather then slaving away just to get free time during the years your body begins to shut down. They basically just prime you so you can accumulate all this money and then they slowly milk you until you die and even after you die.

But then sometimes I look at people who love their jobs and they hey have a genuinely happy life. Not an illusion or a mask — genuine happiness no matter what's going on. That seems like something worth living for. But then I feel bad for those types of people because it's like ignorance is bliss. They're unaware of the reality because they can afford all these distractions whether intentionally or not.

But see now I feel like I'm going all over the place so I'll end it here lol. Long story short… idk what it'll take.

You've expressed this in such a clear concise manner. I agree with your point and I'm in the same shoes. I don't want to do meaningless stuff. I want to use my time on earth for meaningful stuff such as helping people in distress.

And you are right, ignorance is bliss. We are aware of the matrix now so it's difficult to unsee it.

 

[infinitesimal]

to not ctb is to not live as myself. no matter what happens in this life, i will ctb one way or another.

so get reborn with no recollection of my past life into a loving family and hope my brain will be rewired to not center killing myself as my ultimate goal in life and live normally

 

[ctb_warrior]

to not ctb is to not live as myself. no matter what happens in this life, i will ctb one way or another.

so get reborn with no recollection of my past life into a loving family and hope my brain will be rewired to not center killing myself as my ultimate goal in life and live normally

We are in almost the same boat.
I'm going to die by ctb this is definite.
The only thing that could stop me from ctb is if i had a lot of money, like a lot and i could use my free time to help people in distress and bring them out of it and to upskill myself in such a way that anyone i deal with , i could bring them out of their miseries.

 

[cr3zxxe]

ser bonita e confiante, sem autismo e outros transtornos mentais

 

[ctb_warrior]

ser bonita e confiante, sem autismo e outros transtornos mentais

I wish for you that your illnesses can heal and you can lead a beautiful life god bless you

 

[HNR_]

In the most literal way possible? The actual end of the world, nothing else lmao
The sun exploding, wiping life from the face of the earth or something similar

With the luck I've had all my life, I wouldn't even be surprised if that's exactly what happens after I managed to fight off my SI and I'm free falling
One last "fuck you" to all of my efforts

 

[FlatGneiss]

I doubt there's much that could legitimately change my views long term outside of outright changing the past. There's too much time lost, opportunities gone by all due to not getting the help I should have gotten all along.
Money wouldn't change anything other than opening for wider ctb options. Grab what I need to get it done, save a bit for a backup or deal with funeral arrangement, donate the rest and then check out.

 

[cryingmercenary]

Might sound stupid, but getting the full t-therapy and gener affirmation "package", a new First- and Surname, moving to the uk and start at LHR (London Heathrow, Ground Crew) or being accepted at the RAF in Anglesey. I'm tired of this life in my country and getting told to sh and ctb and other equally bad things. But ikvw this won't happen

 

[plimeix]

Maybe if I had a purpose or genuinely improved other's lives… I'm a failure though and lately it's been really apparent how I'm just a deadweight dragging everyone down with me.

 

[windowinstaller]

permadamage from psych meds going away

 

[LonelyPrince]

If my parents became loving and supportive I wouldn't feel so cornered, trapped and come to the conclusion that perhaps ctb is my only way out.
If they were like that I probably wouldn't be suffering with these many mental illnesses and insecurities that cripple me and make me want to die

 

[ctb_warrior]

In the most literal way possible? The actual end of the world, nothing else lmao
The sun exploding, wiping life from the face of the earth or something similar

With the luck I've had all my life, I wouldn't even be surprised if that's exactly what happens after I managed to fight off my SI and I'm free falling
One last "fuck you" to all of my efforts

That'd be a really tough end because of the enormous heat. Everything getting burnt

I doubt there's much that could legitimately change my views long term outside of outright changing the past. There's too much time lost, opportunities gone by all due to not getting the help I should have gotten all along.
Money wouldn't change anything other than opening for wider ctb options. Grab what I need to get it done, save a bit for a backup or deal with funeral arrangement, donate the rest and then check out.

Might sound stupid, but getting the full t-therapy and gener affirmation "package", a new First- and Surname, moving to the uk and start at LHR (London Heathrow, Ground Crew) or being accepted at the RAF in Anglesey. I'm tired of this life in my country and getting told to sh and ctb and other equally bad things. But ikvw this won't happen

What's full t-therapy and gener affirmation package, sounds interesting
I thinking moving to uk and changing your identity could be possible

permadamage from psych meds going away

Yeah these meds actually mess up with the mind really badly. And make us addicted to them
Gradual withdrawal may help to restore regular functioning

If my parents became loving and supportive I wouldn't feel so cornered, trapped and come to the conclusion that perhaps ctb is my only way out.
If they were like that I probably wouldn't be suffering with these many mental illnesses and insecurities that cripple me and make me want to die

That's really tough when the guardians do not understand us. I pray that they have a change of heart and become loving and caring besides, you aren't alone here on sasu
You are with us..

 

[TJT]

Enough money to retire immediately.

There are aspects of life I really enjoy (family, tv). Even as my life becomes increasingly restricted due to chronic health conditions, I appreciate those that remain. However, working a job, even part-time, causes worsening physical health / chronic pain. Which in turn worsens my mental health. All goals I have are things that would only be possible if I either were healed magically or dealt with pain every day. I've already gotten through 5-6 years of this. Nothing has gotten better, only worse.

All of society seems willing to work their life away. Perhaps it's that I deal with chronic pain on a daily basis that makes that idea seem truly ludicrous but even if I were to be magically healed tomorrow I'm not sure I could convince myself that's the right path.

It's unfortunate that even my hobbies make my health worse. I gave up gaming to get my health to a "manageable" level of pain. But if I'm just living to work (which also worsens my health) then that's not much reason to live. If you have one disability, it's usually possible to workaround it but if you have 2 or more it's quite tricky.

I haven't decided to die yet. But I've been researching options. If nothing else I think it's useful to feel there's a way out.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Enough money to retire immediately.

There are aspects of life I really enjoy (family, tv). Even as my life becomes increasingly restricted due to chronic health conditions, I appreciate those that remain. However, working a job, even part-time, causes worsening physical health / chronic pain. Which in turn worsens my mental health. All goals I have are things that would only be possible if I either were healed magically or dealt with pain every day. I've already gotten through 5-6 years of this. Nothing has gotten better, only worse.

All of society seems willing to work their life away. Perhaps it's that I deal with chronic pain on a daily basis that makes that idea seem truly ludicrous but even if I were to be magically healed tomorrow I'm not sure I could convince myself that's the right path.

It's unfortunate that even my hobbies make my health worse. I gave up gaming to get my health to a "manageable" level of pain. But if I'm just living to work (which also worsens my health) then that's not much reason to live. If you have one disability, it's usually possible to workaround it but if you have 2 or more it's quite tricky.

I haven't decided to die yet. But I've been researching options. If nothing else I think it's useful to feel there's a way out.

I wish and pray that life can improve for you and may you've enough money to retire soon.
Look into ways how you can leverage ai, internet and your phone to make money. May be that could give you the freedom to retire from the boring work..

 

[TJT]

Same with me,
As such i currently have the necessary money i need to buy everything i need for ctb. But i don't have a source secondly, even if i order, my family will seize it as i live with them i wonder what to do

Couldn't you have your items delivered to UPS or Fed-Ex? I imagine this requires paying a fee and showing your ID. Depending what the item is I wonder whether this would be more or less safe than ordering to one's home.

I wish and pray that life can improve for you and may you've enough money to retire soon.
Look into ways how you can leverage ai, internet and your phone to make money. May be that could give you the freedom to retire from the boring work..

Thanks! I actually have, extensively. But everything I could use Claude to develop already exists. But using the internet/my PC/AI remains my one hope. I gotta find a job again for immediate income (just moved cities) but may later revisit this.

 

[WallTermite]

Glad to hear from you. I basically would like to get rid of depression and anxiety.

Depression is making me forget stuff and focus less. Anxiety is making me scared of taking big steps in my professional life. I'm also getting sx issues due to my mental health. If I was a few years younger it would also help (I wasted 7 years on mental health, I'm 26). Living where I want to live would reverse my depression completely, but not solve anxiety lol.

Still, tomorrow I think I'll give life a chance and lock in.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Couldn't you have your items delivered to UPS or Fed-Ex? I imagine this requires paying a fee and showing your ID. Depending what the item is I wonder whether this would be more or less safe than ordering to one's home.

Thanks! I actually have, extensively. But everything I could use Claude to develop already exists. But using the internet/my PC/AI remains my one hope. I gotta find a job again for immediate income (just moved cities) but may later revisit this.

The challenge is I'll anyways have to bring that ctb item to my home to ctb.. so even if i get that delivered to my office and then i come back home with it.. I'll still have difficulty storing it.

Let's see if i can get lucky some day

Good luck with finding a job or a hustle that could help you earn all you need to live a good life

Glad to hear from you. I basically would like to get rid of depression and anxiety.

Depression is making me forget stuff and focus less. Anxiety is making me scared of taking big steps in my professional life. I'm also getting sx issues due to my mental health. If I was a few years younger it would also help (I wasted 7 years on mental health, I'm 26). Living where I want to live would reverse my depression completely, but not solve anxiety lol.

Still, tomorrow I think I'll give life a chance and lock in.

You do have hope
A good psychiatrist can help with depression and anxiety. So may be try to look for one.

This technique havening can help if there is a certain trauma that you've