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restforeternity
Student
- Feb 17, 2019
- 170
Noitu x Love
Lone Wolf
- Feb 13, 2019
- 35
Not really. Class matters more than race. Integration is fine. It's how its done that gets you poor results.
Its911
Sociopath
- Feb 28, 2019
- 310
For me it would have to be being born again, without being a sociopath would help.
Oh boy..
Well for starters
I wanna change how i look
My stupid mood cycles
Handling my social anxiety
Getting a control of my eating disorder
I feel like theres more
. Oh well. Those above are just what poppee in my head
Well for starters
I wanna change how i look
My stupid mood cycles
Handling my social anxiety
Getting a control of my eating disorder
I feel like theres more
. Oh well. Those above are just what poppee in my head
Noitu x Love
Lone Wolf
- Feb 13, 2019
- 35
Didn't think I'd find one of you race realist morons way out here. Actually there is no correlation between race and intelligence. I hate it when untrained pseudo intellectuals spout definitive scientific facts as if they're trained. Not to mention you lot have flawed analytics as socialisation muddles accuracy of what an IQ disparity would imply.
Chlo
Experienced
- Feb 17, 2019
- 213
Fucking act like she's not even there. That bitch is retarded.
Noitu x Love
Lone Wolf
- Feb 13, 2019
- 35
Chlo
Experienced
- Feb 17, 2019
- 213
I dunno maybe she was hacked or trolling? I'm probably the idiot here lol. Seems too weird.
Xaphous
hikikomori
- Nov 11, 2018
- 550
Not be totally alone and stuck then I would have had some chance. Bullying destroyed my chances for everything.
odette
Student
- Feb 5, 2019
- 149
A miracle, because I change my mind all the time and I m never happy. I am not gratefull person. Anyway I would like to have my own house or apartment, a remote work. Actually I would like to earn in lottery.
Someone else change the mind all the time and have different ideias about life? I am afraid to take wrong decisions again or keep the way I am: unemployment, live with my mother, making her suffer. But I fell better then when in my last job, I was unable to leave and fell anxious and suicide all the time. Now I fell suicide but with less body pain and anxious.
StGerman
Member
- Feb 22, 2019
- 46
For me it would change everything if I could get rid of my bibolar desease
cornflowerblue
Mage
- Feb 18, 2019
- 553
I can't think of any. I used to think I'll feel different if certain things change or improve, but all of that got better and I still feel the same. I have tried so hard to come up with something because then that would be a goal that gives me hope.
lemmeeleev
Still here
- Nov 29, 2018
- 927
Take my brain, replace it. Get rid of all the things I've ever thought or experienced. In other words, I'd have to not be me. I'd rather ctb than live any life at this point.
Erase all of these memories. Erase my life and start over.
Midnight
Beyond solace
- Jun 30, 2018
- 624
Millions of $. Wouldn't have enough time left to think about CTB then.
Sixfeetunder
Specialist
- Jan 12, 2019
- 319
Be able to write the script for my life. But that's impossible.
Vaughn
Experienced
- Feb 21, 2019
- 227
NOTHING CAN CHANGE.
-I have had everything
- have been everywhere
- have drank and eaten everything
-had the most incredible life
- have survived accidents -18 surgeries etc...
Done it all - time to go soon so that no horrible experiences can keep accumulating and change the balance of my memories, and spoil the whole experience
-I have had everything
- have been everywhere
- have drank and eaten everything
-had the most incredible life
- have survived accidents -18 surgeries etc...
Done it all - time to go soon so that no horrible experiences can keep accumulating and change the balance of my memories, and spoil the whole experience
usernameNotFound
Member
- Feb 2, 2019
- 68
my chronic pain would be gone. I can't guarantee that it would stop my depression but it would be a hell of a lot easier to get by.
I am ___________
Hated, Unloved by the world and everything in it.
- Jan 3, 2019
- 134
Nothing would, realistically such a drastic change is not a likely possibility and it is pointless to cling to false hope. If for say, I could choose or create my own world after I died, then I would want to be born in a fantasy/mmorpg world as a adventurer or knight. I hate this world, and this life that was forced upon me. Everyday is monotonous, empty, boring and feels forced upon me... what little freedom we had left was taken from us, and the land that we all inherited from our ancestors was stolen, and claimed/owned. With so much limitations, rules, expectations and shit forced on us, who in their right mind would want to continue living in this hell? I know I have reached my limit and am on the brink of crossing the edge into insanity, before I lose myself I will end it. I want to go out with being myself to the very end.
Edrudd
Student
- Feb 24, 2019
- 105
Have my dick to start working again. I would literally stop trying to cbt. But I don't think that's possible so fuck it
Pentobartbital
Crumbling
- Feb 25, 2019
- 183
I'd want my body and mind to go back to how they were about one year ago, before I got "sick." Fifty thousand USD wouldn't hurt either!
Its911
Sociopath
- Feb 28, 2019
- 310
We are all here for you, for as long as we are here.
Vaughn
Experienced
- Feb 21, 2019
- 227
wow EXACTLY the same here - - (hugs)
Flutter
Member
- Feb 25, 2019
- 15
I don't think I would consider ctb if I won the lottery. Money can't buy happiness, but it can buy health insurance, medical care, and take away the stress of having to find and keep a job that provides a livable wage.
I'd move out of my stressful living situation, see a therapist (or more realistically end up in a outpatient or non hospital residential program first). I'd be able to go to doctors who are more familiar with my medical conditions and afford treatments that would increase my quality of life. Being able to purchase a car and not worry about the cost of gas would give me a huge sense of freedom. Also, while I don't hold any member of my family in high esteem, I would give them money via a trust. I'd make sure the amount would not be enough to live off of and put a cap on the amount each person would be able to withdraw in a year. One of the terms of the trust would be they are not allowed to contact me again or the money would be revoked. Everything would go through my lawyer.
I'm not saying my life would be perfect. I'd still be mentally and physically ill, but living would be much more tolerable. Dare I say... possibly enjoyable?
I'd move out of my stressful living situation, see a therapist (or more realistically end up in a outpatient or non hospital residential program first). I'd be able to go to doctors who are more familiar with my medical conditions and afford treatments that would increase my quality of life. Being able to purchase a car and not worry about the cost of gas would give me a huge sense of freedom. Also, while I don't hold any member of my family in high esteem, I would give them money via a trust. I'd make sure the amount would not be enough to live off of and put a cap on the amount each person would be able to withdraw in a year. One of the terms of the trust would be they are not allowed to contact me again or the money would be revoked. Everything would go through my lawyer.
I'm not saying my life would be perfect. I'd still be mentally and physically ill, but living would be much more tolerable. Dare I say... possibly enjoyable?
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I am ___________
Hated, Unloved by the world and everything in it.
- Jan 3, 2019
- 134
This is why I love the community here. We are all going through something, and come from different walks of life. And yet we are able to come together, support each other, and even discover new things. If the world was like this community, it would not be such a bad place.
lululoo
Mage
- Dec 15, 2018
- 558
I feel the same way. I don't even want things I used to want because I don't want them as ME. I want to experience them as another person. (Except being free of chronic pain and illness. I would take that either way. I'd still want to die but I would like to remember even just for a day what it's like to feel healthy).
