What changes to your life would need to happen for you to not want to ctb?

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Justice against those who have harmed me.

 

[restforeternity]

Armageddon

 

[Noitu x Love]

This is probably exacerbated by the media, making the wrong values matter. Also I don't think it helps people when we have a lot of races mixed in one area, because this is what u get. It's so much easier for people when they are mostly around their own ethnic group because u only have to compete with people who have a similar culture and biology to yourself. There's more discontent when there's stark contrasts in wealth and beauty to compete with on top of it all.

Not really. Class matters more than race. Integration is fine. It's how its done that gets you poor results.

 

[Its911]

For me it would have to be being born again, without being a sociopath would help.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

Oh boy..

Well for starters
I wanna change how i look
My stupid mood cycles
Handling my social anxiety
Getting a control of my eating disorder

I feel like theres more. Oh well. Those above are just what poppee in my head

 

[Noitu x Love]

Actually race does matter when it comes to abilities and intelligence. It's frowned on to talk about but it creates different outcomes. It's not fair but that's reality. Another thing the political elite ignore when they try to force a bunch of different cultures to live with each other.

Didn't think I'd find one of you race realist morons way out here. Actually there is no correlation between race and intelligence. I hate it when untrained pseudo intellectuals spout definitive scientific facts as if they're trained. Not to mention you lot have flawed analytics as socialisation muddles accuracy of what an IQ disparity would imply.

 

[Chlo]

Didn't think I'd find one of you race realist morons way out here. Actually there is no correlation between race and intelligence. I hate it when untrained pseudo intellectuals spout definitive scientific facts as if they're trained. Not to mention you lot have flawed analytics as socialisation muddles accuracy of what an IQ disparity would imply.

Fucking act like she's not even there. That bitch is retarded.

 

[Noitu x Love]

Fucking act like she's not even there. That bitch is retarded.

A woman holds those views? How sad. I suppose even the fair sex has its dregs.

 

[Chlo]

A woman holds those views? How sad. I suppose even the fair sex has its dregs.

I dunno maybe she was hacked or trolling? I'm probably the idiot here lol. Seems too weird.

 

[Xaphous]

Not be totally alone and stuck then I would have had some chance. Bullying destroyed my chances for everything.

 

[odette]

Emotional support.

 

[Suicide_friend]

A miracle, because I change my mind all the time and I m never happy. I am not gratefull person. Anyway I would like to have my own house or apartment, a remote work. Actually I would like to earn in lottery.

 

[Suicide_friend]

Someone else change the mind all the time and have different ideias about life? I am afraid to take wrong decisions again or keep the way I am: unemployment, live with my mother, making her suffer. But I fell better then when in my last job, I was unable to leave and fell anxious and suicide all the time. Now I fell suicide but with less body pain and anxious.

 

[StGerman]

For me it would change everything if I could get rid of my bibolar desease

 

[cornflowerblue]

I can't think of any. I used to think I'll feel different if certain things change or improve, but all of that got better and I still feel the same. I have tried so hard to come up with something because then that would be a goal that gives me hope.

 

[lemmeeleev]

Take my brain, replace it. Get rid of all the things I've ever thought or experienced. In other words, I'd have to not be me. I'd rather ctb than live any life at this point.

 

[JustAboutDone]

Take my brain, replace it. Get rid of all the things I've ever thought or experienced. In other words, I'd have to not be me. I'd rather ctb than live any life at this point.

Hugs you in a big squeeze

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Erase all of these memories. Erase my life and start over.

 

[Midnight]

Millions of $. Wouldn't have enough time left to think about CTB then.

 

[Sixfeetunder]

Be able to write the script for my life. But that's impossible.

 

[Vaughn]

NOTHING CAN CHANGE.
-I have had everything
- have been everywhere
- have drank and eaten everything
-had the most incredible life
- have survived accidents -18 surgeries etc...
Done it all - time to go soon so that no horrible experiences can keep accumulating and change the balance of my memories, and spoil the whole experience

 

[usernameNotFound]

my chronic pain would be gone. I can't guarantee that it would stop my depression but it would be a hell of a lot easier to get by.

 

[I am ___________]

Nothing would, realistically such a drastic change is not a likely possibility and it is pointless to cling to false hope. If for say, I could choose or create my own world after I died, then I would want to be born in a fantasy/mmorpg world as a adventurer or knight. I hate this world, and this life that was forced upon me. Everyday is monotonous, empty, boring and feels forced upon me... what little freedom we had left was taken from us, and the land that we all inherited from our ancestors was stolen, and claimed/owned. With so much limitations, rules, expectations and shit forced on us, who in their right mind would want to continue living in this hell? I know I have reached my limit and am on the brink of crossing the edge into insanity, before I lose myself I will end it. I want to go out with being myself to the very end.

 

[Edrudd]

Have my dick to start working again. I would literally stop trying to cbt. But I don't think that's possible so fuck it

 

[Pentobartbital]

I'd want my body and mind to go back to how they were about one year ago, before I got "sick." Fifty thousand USD wouldn't hurt either!

 

[Its911]

Emotional support.

We are all here for you, for as long as we are here.

 

[Vaughn]

Nothing would, realistically such a drastic change is not a likely possibility and it is pointless to cling to false hope. If for say, I could choose or create my own world after I died, then I would want to be born in a fantasy/mmorpg world as a adventurer or knight. I hate this world, and this life that was forced upon me. Everyday is monotonous, empty, boring and feels forced upon me... what little freedom we had left was taken from us, and the land that we all inherited from our ancestors was stolen, and claimed/owned. With so much limitations, rules, expectations and shit forced on us, who in their right mind would want to continue living in this hell? I know I have reached my limit and am on the brink of crossing the edge into insanity, before I lose myself I will end it. I want to go out with being myself to the very end.

wow EXACTLY the same here - - (hugs)

 

[Flutter]

I don't think I would consider ctb if I won the lottery. Money can't buy happiness, but it can buy health insurance, medical care, and take away the stress of having to find and keep a job that provides a livable wage.

I'd move out of my stressful living situation, see a therapist (or more realistically end up in a outpatient or non hospital residential program first). I'd be able to go to doctors who are more familiar with my medical conditions and afford treatments that would increase my quality of life. Being able to purchase a car and not worry about the cost of gas would give me a huge sense of freedom. Also, while I don't hold any member of my family in high esteem, I would give them money via a trust. I'd make sure the amount would not be enough to live off of and put a cap on the amount each person would be able to withdraw in a year. One of the terms of the trust would be they are not allowed to contact me again or the money would be revoked. Everything would go through my lawyer.

I'm not saying my life would be perfect. I'd still be mentally and physically ill, but living would be much more tolerable. Dare I say... possibly enjoyable?

 

[I am ___________]

wow EXACTLY the same here - - (hugs)

This is why I love the community here. We are all going through something, and come from different walks of life. And yet we are able to come together, support each other, and even discover new things. If the world was like this community, it would not be such a bad place.

 

[lululoo]

Take my brain, replace it. Get rid of all the things I've ever thought or experienced. In other words, I'd have to not be me. I'd rather ctb than live any life at this point.

I feel the same way. I don't even want things I used to want because I don't want them as ME. I want to experience them as another person. (Except being free of chronic pain and illness. I would take that either way. I'd still want to die but I would like to remember even just for a day what it's like to feel healthy).