AhG

AhG

La vie est tout sauf un rêve
Jan 24, 2019
313
My wife talking and us actually being together instead of not talking or being separated
 
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LastDay

LastDay

Soon, my dear big sister
Dec 29, 2018
103
For the people that "love" me to start treating me well and make me feel cherished for once.

For me to finally love and feel good about myself.

Oh, and a shitton of money. I'm so broke I could barely afford my suicide method and it was only around $30.
 
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FaceOf

FaceOf

Exit is the same for everyone. No need to wait.
Feb 5, 2019
21
I have been thinking a lot, what could make me happy? I am for 3 months in this condition, that I want to kill myself (after divorce with my husband, betraying and problems with my work). Maybe enough money till my death in older age..To have some fun, to travel, to make friends around the world as I used to do... Buuut i understand that it's not possible.. money come and go away. Problems are in me. I can't change my psych, I will never be happy.
 
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lizinha

Student
Feb 6, 2019
144
For him to still love me.
 
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Memento Mori

Memento Mori

shambling garbage
Jan 24, 2019
573
For him to still love me.

if you're 16 then theres still time for that to happen, some things can't rush because of a reason. at least that's what I'm telling myself

My wife talking and us actually being together instead of not talking or being separated

yes...I hope that waiting with ctb is worth it somehow
 
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Noitu x Love

Noitu x Love

Lone Wolf
Feb 13, 2019
35
For myself, I think the change I desire most is my face. I hate the way my race looks, and in addition I am below average for my race. It has caused me to experience constant failure and rejection when all I have ever wanted was to love and be loved. Even being a bodybuilder, having a nice haircut, great hygiene, stylish and well-fitting clothes, etc. cannot fix my appearance apparently. Obviously my race and face cannot be changed, which is why I want to CTB.

Winning the lottery would also help. Appearance doesn't matter if you've got absurd wealth.

Also, meeting someone whom which we would have mutual attraction and compatible personalities.

All are impossible or have very little odds of happening.

But for you guys, don't say "nothing"! Surely there must be something that would want to make you stay, no matter how ludicrous. I'd bet waking up with godlike superpowers would change anyone's mind.
Please don't be black. Just don't.
 
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Kev

Kev

Student
Aug 18, 2018
124
Please don't be black. Just don't.

I'm an Asian man born in a western society. It's been proven many times that Asian men are by far the least desirable/attractive men in western society. I should've worded that differently, I don't hate my race so much as I hate how unattractive the males of my race are seen by the vast majority of western women.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,798
I'm an Asian man born in a western society. It's been proven many times that Asian men are by far the least desirable/attractive men in western society. I should've worded that differently, I don't hate my race so much as I hate how unattractive the males of my race are seen by the vast majority of western women.

Very true, and the things you said about being Asian I definitely experienced throughout my life. It is indeed another one of my reasons to ctb. (I don't know if my life would be 'objectively' better if I was born in East Asia, perhaps or perhaps not -- since iirc East Asian countries aren't as sympathetic to mental illness and disorders - e.g. Aspergers and autism).

I feel like I got the worst of both worlds being an Asian in western society. Not fully accepted by society (before Aspergers and autism even taken into account) and then of course, not 'Asian' enough to be accepted in East Asian countries either.
 
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123die

123die

Member
Feb 16, 2019
95
Honestly, pretty much my entire life would have to change drastically.
 
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TheLastStraw

Member
May 10, 2018
55
About $1,000,000 would be a start in the right direction which is nothing to many people these days

I'm not materialistic I just want to be free from wage slavery, free from working a pathetic job that sucks the energy from me and leaves no room for pride
 
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favourite

favourite

Student
Feb 15, 2019
191
I just want to be truly loved
but 10000000$ for plastic surgeries fixing my hideous face would be also nice
 
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Thisisme373

Thisisme373

Arcanist
Feb 16, 2019
416
1)Winning the lottery.
2)Somehow recovering from all my mistakes and getting a bit of luck in life (landing a good job that suits me and pays at least ok)
3)Becoming super powerful with immortality, time freeze, power to end the world at will and being indestructible.
4)All my anxiety/depression/social phobia magically being cured.

Basically 2 is my only slightly realistic chance but with my damn luck I'll never get a break in life, only more pain.
 
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Chlo

Chlo

Experienced
Feb 17, 2019
213
Getting back with my ex, having a healthier relationship with my family, having healthier habits when it came to substances, having a cool career I enjoyed.
 
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Beyondajoke

Beyondajoke

Member
Jul 18, 2018
29
I now see that everything I once thought was wrong or intolerable was in fact nothing and almost a paradise compared to this disability I've got now... hands that don't work properly is like a nightmare... so if that could be reversed it would be wonderful - but - instead it's getting worse, stress makes it worse, I watch in horror as anxiety produces new pain symptoms to join to rest... I can't switch it off... so instead I'm going in the opposite direction...
 
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Lion

Lion

Zzz
Apr 18, 2018
65
i never really cared about what i looked like and i dont think im ugly but hearing people just asking to be attractive, it just makes me hate myself more...atleast there issues are from there genes and were born into it so its not there fault, there problems are real and physical. every problem in my life cant be blamed on anything else but myself, ive failed at everything i do and i have no good reason for why. not sure why i felt the need to type this out i guess im just jealous, especially hearing the guy who said he takes high level biology courses...i guess all i want is to be successful, make my family proud of what ive done, instead im 22 and havent done shit i have to pretend im even taking classes so my mom can falsely feel proud. I think if I could just be smart that would be all i ask for
 
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ShadowOfTheDay

ShadowOfTheDay

Hungry Ghost
Feb 14, 2019
331
If I could just start over from scratch. Tabula Rasa. Or perhaps an ice-pick lobotomy.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,449
To be healed of all my physical ailments. Making enough money to afford living somewhere cooler than South Carolina would also be nice.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
$50,000.00 would be a good place to start for me.
I'd want to keep goin too if I had that amount. Pretty much solves the poverty problem. That's my main reason for deciding I have to ctb. I don't have the energy or motivation to be a worker bee anymore just so I can barely survive.
 
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throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,446
For myself, I think the change I desire most is my face. I hate the way my race looks, and in addition I am below average for my race. It has caused me to experience constant failure and rejection when all I have ever wanted was to love and be loved. Even being a bodybuilder, having a nice haircut, great hygiene, stylish and well-fitting clothes, etc. cannot fix my appearance apparently. Obviously my race and face cannot be changed, which is why I want to CTB.

Winning the lottery would also help. Appearance doesn't matter if you've got absurd wealth.

Also, meeting someone whom which we would have mutual attraction and compatible personalities.

All are impossible or have very little odds of happening.

But for you guys, don't say "nothing"! Surely there must be something that would want to make you stay, no matter how ludicrous. I'd bet waking up with godlike superpowers would change anyone's mind.
Wow the first paragraph could've just as easily been written by me.

People always say race doesn't matter but it always does. Always. No matter the bullshit they tell you. People never change.
 
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Noitu x Love

Noitu x Love

Lone Wolf
Feb 13, 2019
35
I'm an Asian man born in a western society. It's been proven many times that Asian men are by far the least desirable/attractive men in western society. I should've worded that differently, I don't hate my race so much as I hate how unattractive the males of my race are seen by the vast majority of western women.
You LARPing or something? Where is this "proof" at? Smells like a bunch of fuckery to me. Batty boi.
 
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seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
I'd need for time travel to be figured out so I could go back to the year of my username and fix my mistake
Mate I'd go way back and stop my parents from fucking.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Wow the first paragraph could've just as easily been written by me.

People always say race doesn't matter but it always does. Always. No matter the bullshit they tell you. People never change.
This is probably exacerbated by the media, making the wrong values matter. Also I don't think it helps people when we have a lot of races mixed in one area, because this is what u get. It's so much easier for people when they are mostly around their own ethnic group because u only have to compete with people who have a similar culture and biology to yourself. There's more discontent when there's stark contrasts in wealth and beauty to compete with on top of it all.
 
seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
I'd have to be someone else entirely. My personality cannot happily exist. There are things that would make me feel better, but I'll never be content with this brain in this body on this Earth.
Amen to that.
 
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seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
I need to be dead ASAP.

Floating along doesn't cut it for me.

I need good old death. Quick and clean.

Body carted off to corner then to extinguishment....

Over and done
Nicely put
 
seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
At this point I'll want out of life for as long as I am alive. My brain won't accept anything more or less.
 
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seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
Not existing would erase my desire to ctb. Or I guess getting rid of my propensity to question why things are the way they are and my existential dread would change my mindset on life.
I feel you there. The questioning and existential dread have me locked in the desire for non existence
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Visionary
Aug 27, 2018
2,999
Having a normal functioning body then I would be able to have way more copes.
 
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JoshuaCohen135

Member
Feb 16, 2019
35
Not having visual motion, vertigo/nausea/dizziness 24/7 is a start..

Severely ill and cannot care for myself.
 
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mattwitt

mattwitt

# 978
Jun 28, 2018
2,307
I'd want to keep goin too if I had that amount. Pretty much solves the poverty problem. That's my main reason for deciding I have to ctb. I don't have the energy or motivation to be a worker bee anymore just so I can barely survive.
Too bad we couldn't get disability without really being disabled like millions of other people.
 
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