I relate to this! It seems that the overwhelming majority of my distress and pain revolves around other people. It is often shame, guilt, hatred, heartbreak, panic, and fear that pop up for me very quickly when I am around others. I should mention that often there is no real need for these emotions due to the fact that my brain just decides that it wants to be extremely over-reactive most times. Nonetheless, I'd like to say that despite being told, "Oh, you're isolating! that's gonna make it worse!" over and over again throughout life, I have a new found confidence as of recent times in which I can stick to my guns on the stance that the loneliness of isolation, for me, is nowhere near as painful as constantly feeling ruled by these intense emotions anytime I go out in public.
Absolutely agree! Talked to primary doc about this last week. Couldn't convince her MH stigma is as terrible as it is. BP and major depression suck. (As do all other MH challenges).
Very much the same reason for me. Alot of pain in my mind and body that I feel it's futile to continue as you metaphorically felt. I feel like nothing keeping me sain. That I lost all.
That's I feel the same. People treat like a bad omen. But I alone can stay in this body. And it's too much.
Isolation is not the only cause I would say. There is unbearable pain that if we show, people show resentment toward. Lonliness is painful as well as having experiences outside. The same lingering over the top pain that i can't bear.
The present and past what torment. Whatever hold this future for me. As for my future only a miracle will save me and sooth my worries.
Heartbreak and guilt.
I used to do competitive swimming but got an injury so had to quit. The injury is still present even now and limits me from swimming how i want to still. It even just limits me in general life most of the time. I am 21 now and I fucking hate that I could have made it big maybe in something I loved and that made my head feel empty and clear.
