What are your top 3 reasons for ctb?

[ultrasharpy123456]

1. Why give

2. An angel wings

3. If it's not allowed to fly?

 

[Nlis2244]

1 I hate this fucked up world
2 social isolation
3 fear of responsability/growing up.

 

[divinemistress87]

Brain injury. Depression. Ptsd

 

[indefinitesleep]

1 anhedonia
2 losing parts of myself
3 disinterest in life in general

 

[TheLastBoyOnEarth]

1. Chronic pain, fatigue and malaise condition
2. Anxiety and depression
3. Self- loathing.

 

[dazed.daydreamer]

1. Anhedonia and exhaustion. I have no motivation to do anything. I have severe depression and barely leave bed when having an episode. However, this still applies outside of episodes—I can go through the motions better, but I just do what's expected of my to avoid trouble (getting by in classes and work, bare minimum socializing, etc). I don't feel my own sense of will to do anything; if nothing is expected of me by others, I just drink and rot in bed. I'm generally so detached from life, unmotivated, unproductive, uninspired, anxious, lethargic. I've tried to fix this so many times, but I always ultimately end up back where I started, if not worse off.
2. Self-imposed isolation: I don't mind being alone day to day. I'm a bit socially anxious and pretty heavily avoidant. I like the idea of meaningful relationships, but am always so heavily adversed to the idea of socializing. I do have friends and family, but I don't feel close to anyone, and I feel incapable of doing so. I don't feel like a real person, so there's no one for the other party to truly know on an intimate level, if that makes sense. And I feel that in the long-term, a life spent alone is meaningless. Close friends, families, and lovers are what make life worth living, and I cannot fathom myself ever being able to cultivate those sort of relationships.
3. Realizing I'm wasting so many resources by putting off suicide and clinging on to the idea of things magically improving one day (when there is no reason to think that will be the case): people's time, money, my place at school and work, food, water, etc. I've always felt that I would kill myself at some point anyway, so it's selfish to keep putting it off

 

[b1cycle]

1) big sad
2) life hard
3) autism

 

[Aloneandinpain]

1. Health/pain
2. Severe loneliness and rejection by women
3. I can only really imagine an increasing tragic and terrible future for myself, and at some point I'm not going to wish to witness it.

 

[Timothy7dff]

1. Money
2. Money
3. Deep state Nazis

 

[whotookmylexapro]

only have 2

1. Horrible, horrible OCD/delusions/mental illness. It's been plaguing me for 3 years now and it's worse than ever. I cant see myself living a happy life like this

2. Being a failure in college (but thats due to my mental illness)

 

[lacrimosa]

1. My life doesn't really matter. I have made positive impacts in people's lives in the past, but currently, I am a ghost and want it to stay that way.

2. I have severe mental health issues.

3. I think my CTB will make sense to my family. More sense than me living.

 

[souleater]

1. Making a mistake that ruined my life
2. No support
3. Can't make my parents suffer for me anymore. They deserve to rest

 

[teniralc21]

Isolation/Loneliess
Chronic Depression
Can't relate to anyone

 

[riamu]

1. I'm disabled, and disabled people are treated as second class citizens in basically every country
2. I've always felt like ctb is the way I'm meant to go, even as a kid
3 (and probably the biggest). I'm going to die no matter what, Might as well do it soon

 

[cranberrys]

1. I'm undocumented
All my effort that I'm putting into my education is going to be for nothing, I can't get a job in the field I'm studying. I have no path to citizenship until maybe 5 years from now, and even then it's not guaranteed.
2. My parents
I fucking hate living with my parents, it's a nightmare every day. I can't have a single day of peace, not even to focus on my studies. My dad has huge anger issues and ny mom is so passive aggressive. I desperately want to get out, but I don't have any money and my parents still have control over my bank account despite me being 21. They can see everything I buy and they can transfer money in/out whenever they want.
3. I'm so tired
I'm so fucking tired of every day being busy. Work, school, homework, repeat. I have maybe 1 day of the week where I wouldn't have to worry about anything, except that's also a day that both of my parents are off work so I gotta deal with them. I just want to stop existing.

 

[ADBoy777]

Self hate, life is meaningless for me, loneliness although having many friends

 

[cowboypants]

Long term unemployment

Loneliness/ mental illness AUDHD

Failure? Could be a stretch. I'm good at things I'm interested in. Constantly bombarded that I'm not good enough by parents / dad. Lack of people to motivate me in life. Lost my drive as a child as hard it to say it.

 

[mrbluesky]

Idk if there are really 3 reasons. the fact that I'm lonely is the main one, it's really difficult to me to make friends, cause of my social anxiety and ADHD. i always feel like I said something awkward and can't really bond with people. besides that, things just don't give me joy anymore - the only hobby that still makes me happy is DND, but I can't play everyday and it needs to be in a group, so...

 

[dolemitedrums]

1. Highlander 2 ruined the franchise.
2. The final season of Game of Thrones was a travesty.
3. The Spice Girls broke up.

 

[rednights]

1. Functioning issues and the chronic depression, I am tired of always having to drag myself through the motions.

2. Society is difficult to live and function in for someone like me.

3. I don't think it's worth struggling through the majority of life for those minority moments where you have a good experience or some other kind of pleasures.

 

[Not A Fan]

1. avoiding future homelessness
2. social isolation from dental problems (+unemployment due to the same.. related to #1)
3. social isolation because opioids are the only medicine that has ever helped me mentally, so i am a villain
...and many more

 

[Into-the-abyss]

Housing crisis, anxiety & depression

 

[ninfanatic]

1. I can never alive truly provide others what they need/sincerely connect or share real intimacy at all
2. To be happy and free, and maybe provide a small sense of it to anyone out there.
3. To escape my brain and body forever

More as well, but these are the

 

[spentspirit]

1. long litany of mistakes -- laziness, gluttony, antisocial attitude, lack of healthy habits
2. brain damage, drug abuse, hormone abuse
3. social inequality, technology shredding the fabric of society, social media

 

[Hunter2005]

I honestly don't care to participate in this world over the last 4 years. Like all this suffering and hard work and it's amounted to nothing. All I need is a simple method and I'm out of here. I can stand this planet. I can't make friends, I can't get into a relationship, brain damage, so why not ctb?

 

[MaximusDecimus]

1. No more family left. Parents are both dead and never married/no kids/no siblings.

2. Got royally screwed over years ago by an ex-gf that betrayed and cheated on (and that's putting it mildly) me for months. Admittedly, I didn't handle it in a particularly healthy way, so while I eventually got over it, it left very deep scars that have effectively ruined me for relationships.

3. I've squandered and thrown away so many chances and opportunities.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

1. Little chance of improvement - I've been told that I'll probably have these sorts of feelings for the rest of my life

2. Poor social life - I don't really have a lot of friends, and the people I've been hanging out with recently will probably not be able to hang out as much anymore in the near future. To make matters worse, being around people I trust (which at this point is just them) is pretty much the only thing that makes me feel better

3. The future - Related to the first two points. I really want to get married and have a family, but I don't know how I'm going to be able to do that with these sorts of issues.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

47 feels like I'm getting old
my life has been traumatic
lonliness

 

[BackToLobby]

1. My physical appearance
2. How everything is pointless
3. Being a modern slave

 

[SNastablesalt]

I can only name one thing atm, which is health issues. This world is full of people that go through health issues, some even at the beginning of their life.

I had a good childhood, even though it might be considered a normal one to others. Still I appreciated it.
Then my health started to go downhill..
I know how it feels to be mainly healthy. Stuff just works, social stuff, friendships, school (mostly)..

When youre depressed and your health sucks, some might slowly notice how everything goes downhill. Friendships slowly fall apart, just to name one thing.

Work/school gets harder.. etc.
So that's been my experience and one of my top 3 reasons. Curious about yours.

Hypersexuality, autism, hybristophillia